Other than posting i cant think of a way to
throw out all the unhappy things. No one
will be there to spare a listening ear, not
even YOU!i wanted very much to post about
the happy events but that is just a rare sight.
I myself really cant find any happy moments
to post maybe there is once in a while. but
majority is the sorrow of my life. the sadness,
the loneliness,the emptiness filled up my life.
Nobody to share all these.They THINK i'm leading
a happy life with my love ones; with YOU, with
FAMILY, with FRIENDS.But who actually know the other
side of me? who actually understand how i feel.
SO WHAT i have YOU, FAMILY, FRIENDS? SO WHAT?
anyone of you understand?? anyone of you were there
when i need somebody to cry on? when i need a shoulder
anyone of you were there beside me? NONE!
My parents didnt want me to be with you! they arent
even supporting me when i'm at a stage where i need
supports!they said i'm blind to fall inlove with you!
AM I? i'm very sure I'M NOT BLIND TO FALL IN LOVE WITH
YOU! i am very sure you will prove me that my parents
are wrong! but what did i get? I BEGIN TO HAVE DOUBTS!
lifes in school is such a big fuck! hate to see the red
marks everytime when i get back the test paper. hate to
be nag and nag and STILL NAG by the teachers.hate TO
SEE ALL THE FUCKING 'MASK' and yes I HATE THE TESTS!!!
you know why? CAUSE I'VE GOT NO MOTIVATIONS!my future is
still so dark! will there be anyone to guide me trough
all these?? all these SHITS!
i know u hate to read my MSN nicks as well as my blog!
you want me to SPEAK UP! HOW?? TELL ME HOW?? how to speakup
when NOBODY is even listening? HOW TO SPEAKUP WHEN NOBODY
GIVES A FUCK!? !I also hope to throw all my words at your
face but there is just SOMETHING stopping me.
WE ARE IN A DIFFERENT WORLD!


被爱的女人