I JUST WISH I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THESE!!!i cant take it and i am born to have a very extreamely 'small' heart!I went to school with a very good mood! hoping to have a very nice
monday breakfast at cck mac with veron & michelle (which i did).
despite we were ABIT late we still went for breakfast. finished up fast
and we went to school. when we reached the gate we were 1 min late!
hey 1 min late!!! not 10 mins late! oh what ever... out names were taken
down and they will monitor us CLOSELY and make sure we dont
bloody hell late again whole of this week if not next monday we will have
to report at 7.25!shit that.
two periods free which we had hell loads of fun in the class and also in the
hall.
THIS IS THE WORST PART OF THE DAY!!!i was so happy to hear that you gonna book out later
and the next sentence i said was ' i want to meet you for lunch!'
( with very excited tune!)
and there you go ' i cant make it i have to go yishun cos my Godsis has gastric pain'
(with a very serious tune!)
ARE YOU A DOCTOR IN THE FIRST PLACE???
(the answer is NO)
NOT AS IF SHE HAS GOT NOBODY TO TAKECARE OF HER!
(mind you she got her own boyfriend okay!!!)
AM I NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU???
(which i think so)
DO YOU SPENT VERY MUCH TIME ON ME???
(hell NO!)
I THOUGHT MOSTLY NS BOYS WHEN THEY BOOK OUT THE FIRST
PERSON THEY WANNA SEE IS EITHER THIER FAMILY OR GIRLFREND?
the worst thing is that i even shed tears for what you have said!!! FUCK IT!!
I cant control my tears... but to let them flow. pretending to be strong
when i am so fucking weak inside. you said you fucking give me all the
very best and you asked me not to ask for more???
am i asking for too much?i am just asking you to have lunch with me! is it too much?
TOUCH YOUR HEARTbefore you say all that!
i told you i am one lucky girl. i admit i am lucky.
but you dont fucking hell come and pamper me when u bloody hell hurt me!
EVERYTIME YOU KILL ME WITH ALL YOUR HURTFULL WORDS
and than you save me from the hell with all the pamperings. do i have to suffer
so much before i can become a lucky girl?? if that is the case i rather i am one
ordinary girl WHO DONT GET HURT ALL THE TIMES!
and you!if u are so unhappy with the results that you yourself got, u bloody hell go and study
for god sake! and beat me in EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT since you want it so much
and dont come and bullshit infront of me! I HAVE ENOUGH .