I've got lots of things in my head that keep me occupied!
Lots of things that i so wanna speak up but i dont know how
to put them in words or rather i dont want any unhappy arguments.
why do i have to end it that way? so i choose
to shut up and move on as if i'm perfectly alright with my life,
with everybody around me. i'm bad at hiding the unhappy side
of me cos most of the time my facial expressions tells it all even
there aint any words from my mouth. thats just me, and ppl
can really tell if i'm not happy with certain things.
this is really bad!!!
i know you are in a difficult position at times but i cant help it too!
if i can stop the time i would definately stop it at those moments
we were even cos i seriously hate odds! i dont know if u get my
hints but u always dont seem to . so after waiting, trying,
calling, now it ends this way ,i have to blame myself for it.
blame myself for being a fool. i know u are in a dilemma of
want or dont want. But still for your own good, for your own benefit
u made the decission. I am not blaming anybody nor angry with
anybody but i'm just a lil sad. try and put yourself in my shoes
and see how would u feel. maybe u're always so cool, that u dont
react to it but deep down your heart i'm sure u do feel something.
after bei ng together for so long i still can feel your heart.
i may not understand u 100% but i sure do know u better than
most of your other friends.
i feel sorry to put u in such a difficult possition . i know and i'm
very sure u hate it too...
i'm still thinking if i should post it up cos i really dont mean to
break us apart. u know i treasure you ALOT.
so the whole purpose of this post is definately not to drift us
apart but i hope it can get us closer once again.
u know i love u too =)
alright attended the grooming thingy in school this morning . i
i'm sure most of us did learnt something useful and Jill the speaker
was really entertaining . i was laughing most of the time. LOLS.
after getting to know that stephanie and huiming aint goin for
the prom, theres sudden urge inside of me is restricting me
to spent so much money just for the prom. HOW?!?! and another
reason would be WHAT'S THE POINT OF NOT ABLE TO SIT WITH
YOUR BEST FRIENDS and ENJOY the first and the last big event
held by school ? now i'm in a dilemma of want or dont want. shiats!!
i'm gonna have a serious thinking the next 2 days before i get my ass
out to hunt for the dress. nevertheless i still look forward to friday
cos i'm gonna dye my hair with veronica leong =) i hope it wont look
weird!!! =X
anw i guess i'm so gonna lie flat soon!!! after the 2nd packet this afternoon,
my whole body went soft! my legs could hardly walk. and u would
not want to know how many times i...
( okay dont ask me 2nd packet of wad! cos I WONT TELL)
so paiseh please.
hopefully i will feel better tml =)
alright i shall stop here..