_________my love my soul

2008-05-13T00:15:00.005+08:00

I MISS BLOGGING!!!

OMG!!!

i'm finallyback after 5 months plus!!!

but i guess i wont blog so often either

unless there are really something happening.

OR i feel like typing out my feelings ,

only then i'll come back to blog again.

~LOVES~

-EKYO-

2007-12-31T08:30:00.000+08:00

so i've been out EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

can u believe it? despite the company shut down
for quite a few days but still i'm out enjoying myself!!
i love this kinda life but ... my money was spent
dont know at wad shit! seriously... i'm BROKE AGAIN -.-

XMAS EVE
met up with the 2 babes. veron and huiteng at causeway.
was a simple meet up but still it was nice to see them
after so long not meeting up .
met baby and xing he at yishun mrt after i left causeway.
So i spent my christmas eve having Steamboat at bugis.
also our so called count down there. It was so funny
to see them snatching for the beefs. LOOOLS.
left bugis at around 12 plus den we headed back to yishun
cos they decided to drink at Green valley!
after which we cab back to admiralty to buy drinks and mac.
so walk back to baby's hse and they continued drinking.
till morning 6 plus =) so so so f. shag!

XMAS`
decided to spent my Xmas with family this year. so i called
to make a reservation at a buffet Restaruant call VIENNA.
The buffet dinner starts only at 7.30pm so b4 that Chen jie
my bros and i went for a ktv session at partyworld.
the whole thing end at around 5. we went to buy skinny jeans
den faster rushed down to Novenna to meet our parents
for the buffet dinner. THE FOOD THERE ARE SUPER NICE!!!
guess how much it cost in totall? nearly $500!!! hahahas..
but i guess it is still worth it! wad u expect? public holiday plus
it was a dinner leh!!! so ofcos its more ex! wanna jio baby there
one of these days =D

26th dec.
headed down to baby's great grandma's funeral.

27th dec.
steamboat session with my working mates at marina.
i must say it was a fun outing with them.
(ming loon, gary, jian zong, raymond, jia yi & bronson)
so after that we went cuppage to play pool.
left the place at 12mindnight.
walk back to cine cos ming loon park his bike there. -.-
so we took a taxi back from cine. lools.
as if cuppage got no taxi sia....

28th dec.
working~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but the parts are not here so we cant work =DDD
so basically we are slacking from 6.30pm to 6.30 am!
LOOOLS we even went for 1 hour break when we are
supposed to have only 20 mins of break.
and 1 hrs plus when we supposed to have only 35 mins
of break. loools. it was sooo fun!!! so slack!
and it was Jia yi's last day of work =(
she wanna go into cosmetic line so ya...

29th dec.
after work we went yishun mac for breakfast with
(Shi ling, ming loon, zaidi, jian zong, raymond, jia yi & bronson)
after that shiling, jianzong and i walk over to raymond's hse
to play mahjong till 1 plus and we went back home cos
all our eyes are closing imagine right after 12 hrs of night
shift we continue playing mahjong.. madness i tell u =DD

so i sleep for about 2 hours and went over to baby's hse
den decided to sleep awhile more but he keep pestering me
to bath and get ready to go out and celebrate yong hsin's birthday.
so crazy sia.... damn shag that day..
met xing he at yishun mrt den we went orchard to find yongxin
and his gf. later headed down to St james power house.
Ah neh and his gf was there already den soon after tt jeff and
his gf came... i wasnt in a good mood for that night. so ya
didnt really enjoy myself.

anyway happy birthday yong hsin =D

30th dec.

supposed to meet working mates at sentosa by 10
but i couldnt make it. cos i reach home only at 9 and
after 2 days of not sleeping plus the alcohol i had last night
i was really really tooo shaggg tooooo maakeee myyy
wayyyy downnnnn toooo sentosaaa toooo joinnn innnn
theeeeee funnnnnn.. SORRY GUYS

head down to baby mum's bro funeral at night-.-
b4 we came back home, we went yishun
buy nasi lemak.. a v popular stall =D
nice nice!!!

31th dec..

i just reached home not long ago..
will be meeting veron later at town den
the later part of the day still got no plan =.-
where should i go for the new year count down??
i'm still waiting for his plan =(

PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOAD SOON .. too lazy now..

let me sleep awhile more =DD

shall i make a new year resolution??
i'll see how.. maybe in my next post ?

2007-12-22T11:13:00.001+08:00

Recently my interest of taking photos came back again..
=DD and people around me really cant stand it HAHAHAS.
especially those guys~~~ they got a shock of thier life
to hear the number of folders of my vain pictures. hahas
Few days back i took Zaidi's bike home after work.
Very nice guy =D and i had hell lots of fun with this bunch
of working mates around ^^ (i've mentioned many times)
but really it was fun fun fun working with them! =D

anyway i dont know what medicine i took to actually take
his bike home from angmokio to admiralty. It was scary
as it was my first time taking such a long journey.
but have to admit it was super fun! i was soo nervous til
i was like squeezing his fats on his waist! hahahas.

was supposed to go swiming the other day but didnt.
so i basically slept the whole day and night. Because
of that we had a tiff!

the day after i headed out with a friend and it was
really nice to see that friend of mine again=D

So yesterday i headed out to meet (S) at west coast
early in the morning and slack till around 4 den i went
off to bugis to meet raymond and jian zong.
we went to shop around at bugis and den off for
steamboat at nearby. it was super nice to eat
steamboat with 2 guys!! LOOOLS i didnt
have to do anything but just eat and laugh.
my stomach hurt so badly then due to too
much laughters.. (bad idea to shop with guys)
though there are many shirts and dresses are freakin
cheap but still i didnt get them. tts why i say its a mistake
to shop with guys ^^ only manage to get a slipper! DAMN CUTE!
had a good time laughing at that slipper! loools
after which we cabbed down to bukitpangjang
to a pub opp tenmile.saw chenswee.
it wasnt tt fun place afterall
met jian zong's 2 friends and we drink 2 jars only
and left the pub. so they wanted to go timah but i didnt
want to so slack at a 24 hr coffee shop till 12.30am
and i cab back to woodlands cos SOMEBODY aint happy
with me, so he insisted to see me by 1am. thus they stay over
at jianzong's place for some chatting sessions. LOOOLS
so for the past 3 days i merely sleep for 3 hours everyday=.-
so damn fucking SHAG now! and i jus reach home. headed
down to marsiling posb bank and came back to admiralty
to have breadfast and now i'm here blogging.

have to thank the dudes for the steamboat,cabfares and drinks=D
all so gentlemen =X and i felt kinda paiseh not spending a single
cent! next time shall be my treat ^^

i think i better go take a nap first before heading down for
Esther's chalet later in the evening. if not my eyes bags gonna
be bigger and bigger! scary~~~

i'll upload some photos after i wake up(if i'm free) =D

tata~~~~

2007-12-17T10:12:00.000+08:00

Seriously i should take MORE pictures from now on~~~
totally lack of photos !! how sad.. i wish i'm still so vain
like last time. but sadly i'm not , why huh?

1st try

2nd try and i give up!
sad sia.. i used to take pretty pics but after sometime
not taking photos my skills like shit now =(((

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I know... but i've to reject. its too sudden.
and whats more i dont want history to repeat again.

I always seem to be the bad party heh.
i dont want it this way but u just didnt give
me enough time. all i ask from u is to let nature
take its course but u said let nature take its course
is a way of rejecting. so u are telling me that you want
means u want?!? well i'm speechless.
i hope it will be better this way =)
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okay ignore that part. u wouldnt understand it.
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working life is GREAT despite the parts where supervisor
nag nag nag at us for talking too much while working
cos she didnt want those lines understand her to cock up xD .

with the mates around they never fail to brighten up
our working life. the jokes we share with each other never
fail to made us laugh till our stomach cramp =DD

somehow i always look forward to the next working day
when i'm having off days.

theres steamboat tonight at marina among the 8 or 9
of us ( sadly non of them from my line =( ) i'm still thinkin
if i should go or not cos i'm gonna feel so weird!!! but
they insisted that i should go =((( howwwwwwwwwww?
i aint very close to them lah!!!!!!!! what should my plans
be for today??? shall see~~~~~
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off days are great too.
attended alvin's chalet last week. it was fun i should say.
so many familiar faces =) nice to see them again.

and last week headed down to power house ..
i was so so so fucking drunk tat night. and i'm totally
lost! yes TOTALLY lost. lucky i wasnt with strangers
or i would have been raped that i myself dont even know.
this is how dangerous it can be when u are fucking drunk.

2007-12-07T18:14:00.000+08:00

i wanna be understanding, i dont wanna be unreasonable no more!
lets see how things go in these couple of weeks. definately i'm feeling
better now but inside of me i feel so neglected but of cos i understand
the situations we are in now. I WILL UNDERSTAND and I MUST understand!.

Has been working for the past 2 days! i LOVE my working environment
depite the fact that it is a standing job but it is so freaking easy job!
no rushing at all instead we sit there and wait wait wait and see see see
if the machine is working properly. and i must say that the malay girl(Maya)
whom me and hai huang followed is damn nice~~ we click very very well!!
my love!!! hahas shes 27 but she definately dont look like her age! she
looks like as if she is only 22! we talk about anything and everything .
hahahahas.. learn alot... not about the work but about life. LOOLS.
very very pretty .. and shes 2cm shorter than me ^^ and she is definately
a sweetheart. she let us choose our breaktime and she know tt i'll be alone
she helped me to ask peter( same agent as me and start work tgt) workin
at the line beside mine to accompany me for all my breaktime..
LOOLS so nice right? so i was no longer lonely ^^
ofcos there are some people who is so fucking irritating !!!
he was just like a shadow of me like wad Maya said. hahahas..
and he is kinda like our laughing stock... free entertainment
not bad...

have been lack of sleep these few days.. so today i slept from 8am till 6.
still dont seem to be enough heh..
i'll stop here first. today and tomoro is my offdays but today i've
already wasted it on sleeping~~~ =(

2007-12-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

SOME IDIOTS REALLY GOT N.O B.R.I.A.N!

oh well i guess he wont be reading my blog so yea i'm
gonna copy and paste our conversations here!

the reason his email add is here is because i've deleted him from my contact
like LOOOOONG time ago cos i dont know who he is.
but i forgot to block him so he still can see me when i'm online.

chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
hey galgal
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
hows life?
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
eh fine ba
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
oh okae
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
hmmm
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
its been a long time since i tok to u
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
hmmm
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
hows u n ur bf?
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
=.=
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
eh not v d
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
?
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
good*
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
not veri good?
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
ya
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
dun be sad kae
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
trying
chua_yuan_he@hotmail.com says:
let mi pei u and console u?
♥EKYO＊︵＊ ;我会放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下你 says:
how to console sia
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I guess he fucking dont understand my msn nick! it clearly says that
I AM FEELING FUCKING MISERABLE NOW :'(

and those chinese words in my nick ofcos is refering to my relationship
isnt it?
DAMN IDIOT!

alas.. u will know why i say he damn idiot when i show the photo..

no mood to blog!!!
I'm a Sadist...

IF ONLY~
IF ONLY~~
IF ONLY~~~
IFONLY~~~~
IF ONLY~~~~~ IF ONLY you're here! :'( i dont want this "holiday"!!!
IF ONLY~~~~
IF ONLY~~~
IF ONLY~~
IF ONLY~

2007-12-01T14:55:00.000+08:00

One week has passed! And i'm still as moody!
i felt really terrible at night when everybody
was in their lalaland and there i was feeling
so terrible forcing myself to sleep but still i failed!
whenever i close my eyes i'll think of you, think of
the moments we were together side by side.
Be it happy or sad. you never fail to appear in my head!
then slowly tears rolled down my cheeks and there
i cry myself to sleep with the accompany of the love songs
in my handphone repeating again and again.
the feeling of missing someone is so so so torturing!
how i wish i can get you outta my head but i just cant!

i wanna move on so badly but my instinct always
never fail to stop me, always pull me back when i'm
trying my very best to move forward. i'm fighting against
it and i swear it is tiring and hurting.

i'm so lost and i didnt know wad i wanna do either.
life is totally screwed up!

I'm wondering do you feel the same like how i do?
or have for already forget all about me, about us?

笑着说很好的时候`谁能看见我满脸的泪水

难道我注定是你生命里短暂的插曲吗？

i miss you, i miss you so badly!
can you hear my heart calling for you?
do u feel me?

2007-11-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

就这样结束了吗？
就这样我们就被打败了吗？
就这样你的心就死了吗？
就这样我对你就没感觉了吗？
就这样你就要离开了吗？
就这样我就要走了吗？
就这样我们就放弃了吗
就这样我们都舍得吗？
就这样我们不后悔吗？
就这样我们都放的下吗？
就这样我们就不再比此相爱了吗？
就这样你我不再是比此的唯一了吗?
就这样两年就这样完了吗？

心如刀割~~~

2007-11-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

I decided to blog my feelings out!!! i know u hate me

posting about the sad moments we had! but still i wanna

let it all out cos if i dont, i'm gonna have another sleepless

night! which sucks big time! and also if i dont i'll have to

keep it to myself deep down inside my heart which gonna

hurt me so badly!

我不难过这不算什么只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂

不要再说或许这是最好结果

现在分手总好过你不爱我一拖再拖ｏ

松开你的手离开你左右

我向前走这会是我真正的解脱

I'm tired of the same routine.

so tired of all the arguments we had.

over and over again!

maybe we arent meant to be tgt.

maybe we are not ready to love,

maybe we dont know what is love.

maybe we are still too early to commit into love.

maybe theres no more love.

too much of MAY BE....

i know u are very sick of it now, so am i!

i'm sick and tired of the sleepless nights.

i'm sick of crying myself to sleep!

i'm sick of thinking those negative things!

i'm sick of waiting! sick of wondering what is

going on ...

you are stress, do you think i aint?

you are unhappy do u think i am happy?

i show my care and concern but do u appreaciate?

maybe u do but do u know the way u react to it

is as if all my talkings are just bullshiting!

u never treat my words serious.

so much of your promises are mend for u to break!

u think i'm stressing you but you dont know

how much you are stressing me!

i guess a break/ rest is best for both u and me!

we shall see how long it takes!

i am really very very VERY sick and tired of

the life i'm leading now. cos you're driving me nuts!

I MUST BLOG ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!

i got con by a taxi uncle! indian old man!! aint being racist!

i cab down to down town east which is at pasir ris from

my place Admiralty, guess how much the uncle charged me?

BLOODY $29!!!!!! NBCB lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there goes my 30 dollars! i tot to and fro might cost me $30 plus

who know one way there already cost me $29!! so i decided to

slowly wait for bus and take mrt to town instead incase i got

con again and i would not have enough money to pay lah!!!

TMD!!! even my midnight charge also not so expensive lor!!!

den i asked him why so expensive he replied me, oh jus now

the other side having traffic jam so i drive another way.

and it was raining so heavily i decided not to argue with him

but to ask him for a receipt!

bloody hell! den when i called the comfort company tried

to complain abt this incident guess wad?

they asked me hell lots of questions! like erm how did the

taxi travel , pass by which high way bla bla bla..

HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW LAH!!!!

TMD ben xiao jie sit there u think i kept looking at the

sign board along the road meh.. den ask me passby what building

bla bla bla.. omg!!! i can die !! i describe few buildings and she expect

me to say more!!! do u think i can remember every little details

along the road ah? STUPID SIA!!! so i told her forget abt the

complaint thingy.... blame it on my ROTTEN LUCK!!

totally spoiled my mood! fuck sia!!! curse that taxi driver!

KNNBCCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm still very angry now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

luckily 3 hours of KTV was a free one =)

2007-11-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

I VERY MUCH WANT TO POST
but i dont know how to start it with!
i very much want to post alllllll my thoughts
but i dont know if i should?
i want to post so badly but my hands are tied!
want or dont want? yes or no? should or should not?
what the hell is going on with me ???
CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME!!!

you, you, you are driving me nuts!

2007-11-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

17/11/07
Miss lai's wedding! well it was a churching wedding, very glad to
see some of the classmates. head down to town for shopping after tt.

18/11/07
lets not elaborate more, our 2 year anniversary and we had a
major argument! and there goes all my plans! u know how disappointing
it was? you know how hurting it was? you know the mixed emotions
inside of me? i really wanted to give up but u always dont treat my
words seriously. u always thought after some time for me to cool
down and everything will be just FINE! thats what u always do!
so i stayed over at veron's hse!
b4 tt head town to bugis den later back to bp for thier dance practise.

19/11/07
Prom night is over and that also marked an end for the four years
in west spring secondary school! despite being hurt deeply, beeing so
'moodless' i still put on my smiley face for the night!
i'm just too lazy! so i guess i'll jus post some of the photos from my
handphone! i hope u guys will send me the photos too ! thanks =)

the pic with IVAN is HE insisted that i should show my back!!
lols..

alright there are more to come =) provided they send me the
photos and i am not so lazy then i'll upload! lol.s

gotta go! nites all!

2007-11-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

I've got lots of things in my head that keep me occupied!
Lots of things that i so wanna speak up but i dont know how
to put them in words or rather i dont want any unhappy arguments.
why do i have to end it that way? so i choose
to shut up and move on as if i'm perfectly alright with my life,
with everybody around me. i'm bad at hiding the unhappy side
of me cos most of the time my facial expressions tells it all even
there aint any words from my mouth. thats just me, and ppl
can really tell if i'm not happy with certain things.
this is really bad!!!

i know you are in a difficult position at times but i cant help it too!
if i can stop the time i would definately stop it at those moments
we were even cos i seriously hate odds! i dont know if u get my
hints but u always dont seem to . so after waiting, trying,
calling, now it ends this way ,i have to blame myself for it.
blame myself for being a fool. i know u are in a dilemma of
want or dont want. But still for your own good, for your own benefit
u made the decission. I am not blaming anybody nor angry with
anybody but i'm just a lil sad. try and put yourself in my shoes
and see how would u feel. maybe u're always so cool, that u dont
react to it but deep down your heart i'm sure u do feel something.
after bei ng together for so long i still can feel your heart.
i may not understand u 100% but i sure do know u better than
most of your other friends.

i feel sorry to put u in such a difficult possition . i know and i'm
very sure u hate it too...
i'm still thinking if i should post it up cos i really dont mean to
break us apart. u know i treasure you ALOT.
so the whole purpose of this post is definately not to drift us
apart but i hope it can get us closer once again.

u know i love u too =)

alright attended the grooming thingy in school this morning . i
i'm sure most of us did learnt something useful and Jill the speaker
was really entertaining . i was laughing most of the time. LOLS.

after getting to know that stephanie and huiming aint goin for
the prom, theres sudden urge inside of me is restricting me
to spent so much money just for the prom. HOW?!?! and another
reason would be WHAT'S THE POINT OF NOT ABLE TO SIT WITH
YOUR BEST FRIENDS and ENJOY the first and the last big event
held by school ? now i'm in a dilemma of want or dont want. shiats!!

i'm gonna have a serious thinking the next 2 days before i get my ass
out to hunt for the dress. nevertheless i still look forward to friday
cos i'm gonna dye my hair with veronica leong =) i hope it wont look
weird!!! =X

anw i guess i'm so gonna lie flat soon!!! after the 2nd packet this afternoon,
my whole body went soft! my legs could hardly walk. and u would
not want to know how many times i...
( okay dont ask me 2nd packet of wad! cos I WONT TELL)
so paiseh please.
hopefully i will feel better tml =)
alright i shall stop here..

2007-11-10T13:01:00.000+08:00

Okay all these photos were taken LONG TIME AGO!!!

if i got the $$$$$ i will smile like tt =D damn wide smile

messy i know

my bro painting the new room

Ekyo & Deko mapling =DD

Those cosmetics cost a bomb in my mum's pocket! but i love=D

after so much torturing by heels i STILL love them =D

big eyes ( yea i so evny)

cutie pie

with lovely niece

Baby was drilling the hole on the wall lol. Btw he was using the hairband =D my love

NHT after her hair extension.

2007-11-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

so i'm OFFICIALLY free from fucking olvl.

but life couldnt get any better without suficient $$$ .

whatever i want, whatever i need i must go through NAGGINGS
before i could get them. whats worst? after some naggings
i still cant get wad i want! damn fcuk up!

i just so hate to ask for money from them... must see thier faces.
damn fuckup! IF ONLY I'M BORN TO BE RICH!!!!!!!!!!!

Teng came to my hse in the morning to find jobs.
but there aint any =( so we decided to visit the hair salon!
baby paid for my hair rebornding and hair dye.
thank you baby i love u la =D
but i need to thank my bro for the money first!

I sit there for like nearly 6 hours????
so next week i'm goin again to dye my hair =D
hopefully veron can make it too!!!

so i guss i wont be following the prom night theme
reason very simple because i've got no sufficient money
and also because tat stupid theme is so hard to follow la!
damn!! prom shopping is gonna cost me a bomb again!

where the hellllll should i get all those money from??

okay i shall stop whining here!

on a happy note, i help baby to cut his hair ytr den when
he visited the salon in evening to dye his hair guess wad?
that hairstylist said it was not bad =D hahahas
damn happy la... receiving such comments really made my
day!! especially from a hair stylist =DDD
but ofcos can be better !! nvm i'm happy enough and it really
made me like this career even more =DDD

i shall consider about it!

okay i shall stop here. no picstures taken..
i'm no longer so vain anymore. should i be happy or sad?

bullshit----

2007-11-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

lack of photos due to? OLEVEL lah!!! so blame olevel if u find my blog too wordy =D
but i've got many photos on those cosmetics, heels,that i bought recently but NOT me .. lols unless ur interested den i will post up =D b but i doubt so la hah. so save my energy =D

I got this from QQ zone and i think its kinda meaningful =D

女人是感性的，特别是爱上了男人的女人，她的感性在不断扩大，理性在不断缩小。所以她可以从心底相信你会永远爱她之类的话。所以她会从心底相信，你犯过的错误不会再犯。所以她会从心底相信，你的甜言蜜语是真切的发自内心的。

爱上男人的女人被男人引入了爱情甜梦中，从而失去了分别现实和梦境的能力。爱上你的女人是最脆弱的，她可以因为你不经意的甜言而开心一整天，也可能会因为你无心的伤害而落泪，因为她把自己给了你，因为她只活在甜美的梦中。

请珍惜爱上你的女人，因为爱你，她失去了天使的翅膀，所以她无法再飞回天堂，因为爱你，她选择了和你在人间游荡。因为爱你，她给了你她全部的信任和完全的依赖，任由你来引领她的命运和未来。因为爱你，她把自己的快乐和痛苦都交给了你，所以你才可以那么轻易就让她快乐。

请珍惜爱上你的女人，这份信任\真心\真意\也许她只会给你 !

How i wish baby would read this . hahahas
anw i've been slacking , coughing, sleeping, breathing, nevertheless surfing the net but i just refused to open that blardy social studies textbooks and READ & MEMORISE! fuck i'm in deep shit. =(
and i find my body system so f weird eh. everytime i'm sick and after i consulted a for medicines but the medicines didnt do any help!!! i'm still coughing NOW! i am dying soon. if this goes on i bet i'm going for another surgery again!! tantockseng is calling me~~~~~~~ FUCKKK!!! please let me recover, i've been coughing for so many days =( okay i shouldnt whine and whine and whine AND WHINE like a f old woman! I'M STILL YOUNG LAH!!! OK STOP! i go open my books and please let those words sink into my head till tomoro morning 8 am =D. thank God!

Good luck peeps =D hurr lols as if got people read my blog. cos its DEAD for so long. ai yaaaaaaaaa jia you lahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2007-11-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

FIVE MORE DAYS!!!
5 MORE DAYS!!!
多五天！！！
多5天！！！

Yes i'm NOT dreaming!!!
tell me i'm not dreaming please!!!
3 more papers,
5 more days and i'm officially
OUT OF THE HELL!!!
NO MORE BOOKS FOR ME!!!
because i'm NEVER a friend of books.
I HATE THEM and i'm sure BOOKS HATE ME TOO =D

alright i'll be back SOON hopefully.
Good bye~~~

2007-10-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

[[期待11月7号的结束]]

现在只想等待11月7号的解脱,
多年的路程将在11月7号停止
那种感觉无法用言语形容。
现在的生活真的是一塌糊涂，
怎天熬夜对着那些书，
导致我生病的原因。
厌倦了这种生活。
压力很大,疲惫的让我喘不过气。
时间是那么的快,
那个地方让我获得友情，
可我却深深的讨厌那个地方
一个如地狱般的地方,
一个生活着许多垃圾与废物的地方
一个我离开后都不想再回去的地方
终于要离开了,摆脱垃圾与废物,
重新开始,相信我会做的更好
对成绩，我以不抱太大希望了。
在一切划上句号后,
我想给多年的路程一个总结后,
我需要的是一个假期。
一个能让我既轻松又愉快的假期
一个能跟我的家人,朋友,我爱的人度过的假期。
我是多么的期待啊,真希望一切能尽早结束。。。。。。

11 月7 号等着我来！！！！！！！！！

2007-07-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

No phone no pictures :(

WOoooTs i'm back again!!! Isnt it weird that i stayed
at home at this point of time? hello?? saturday leh!!!

okay whatever but here i am now!

I've like wasted my friday afternoon( the only day of the week
that we can go home early from school ) sleeping all the way till
6 plus when my mum cames back! i swear i was too tired! really
shag after so many nights of not able to sleep well and so
many days of heartbreakings and so many of bla bla bla
i finally had a niceeee long sleep!

so as usual i cant sleep lastnight due to too much of sleepin
in the afternoon. so i was playing with my laptop till 4am! and i
managed to fall asleep agian! thus resulting in waking up late
today! its a link! wtf and here my weekends are gone again!!!
i jus wake up not long ago so do u think i have the mood to go
out now? at this point of time ? at this kinda weather? NO!!

i shall see how things go later on! tonight?

So for the past few days baby and i werent in a good term!
and i have made up my mind not to take the initiative to call
him anymore thus i'll wait for his call everytime!
I CAN DO IT!!!!
so he did called, he jus reach home from work and he went to
have a nap first . he asked me to wake him up at 5.
shall i call him?? shall i call? i jus said i wont call him!!!!

so he said tml he will bring me out? maybe after SOOOO
long not birnging me out and after sooo long he felt abit
guilty? abit bad? abit OH I SHOULDNT TREAT MY
BABY GIRL SO BAD!!! COS SHE MISSES ME SO MUCH!!
and abit HEY I SHOULD SPENT MORE TIME WITH MY
BABY GIRL CAUSE SINCE I START WORK TILL NOW I HAVENT
HAD THE WHOLE OF MY TIME WITH HER ALONE!!!

whoa if only baby thinks that way too :)
pls let us have a peaceful day tml! no arguments! thank God!

arghhhhh i'm dreaming! i'm so crazy now!
I'm in the AFTER olevel mood ALREADY!!!
arghhhhh fuck!!! can i just throw my fucking books
away?!?!

in that case baby wouldnt have been nagging and nagging
and nagging all the way !!! he wouldnt have resons like
i need to study therefore it is not the time for me to
enjoy YET!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I SO MISS THE TIMES WHEN I DONT HAVE TO FACE
THE BOOKS WORKSHEETS TEN YEAR SERIES NO MORE!!

But when will this day comes? when? 3 months later?

ARGH!! crap!!! i'm still dreaming away!!!
somebody slap me??

WAKE ME UP!!
MOTIVATE ME CAN??!

NO MORE missing schools ? ???

okay this post is totally bullshit!

i'm just dreaming away!

so peep jus click the red fat croww on the top right hand corner?!

YES CLICK!!!!!

WHAT THEEEEEE u have already finish reading!

LOVES YOU LAH!!! =D

oh My beloved w800i is dead!! after being with me for
1 year 7 months it decided to leave me alone :(
and i cant be bother to send it for service cos i know
it will cost me a bomb! thus getting a new phone is
still a good idea! any kind soul would like to sponsor
me with the phone? i sure will love u to death! LOLS.

isnt it good to have day dreams? i think is good!!

BYES!! i'm gonna carry on dreaming!=D

2007-07-10T17:01:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!!! BUT I'M GOONA VENT MY ANGER HERE!!! nth else!

THUS IF U CANT STAND ANY VULGARITIES ...
u see this RED big fat cross on the top right cornner!?!
YES CLICK IT and u wont have any eyesores!

I HAD A FUCKING ROTTEN LUCK TODAY!!!
and i do mean really really SUEY lah! NBCB!!!

was happily walking to school with veronica this
morning! so when we reach the hall so went to sit
with her class where as i intended to give assembly a
miss. so i walked out of the hall and saw this bloody old bitch!
and my reaction was like " whoa suey!" den i turn back .
and this old fucking bitch scream damn bloody hell loud
for twich. she goes like " the girl with red bag come here!"
so i turn back and walked up to her.

she asked :" is this your bag?"
me: "ya?" ( was thinking any problem with my bag?)
she asked: " do u think i should confiscate it?"
me : " har?" ( was like WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY BAG?

den she continued to ask me to pull down my skirt
and i tried to breath in hard and tried to pull down abit
den she was like unfold your skirt!
nabeicheebye I DONT FOLD MY SKIRTS!! bloody bitch!
den ask me to clean my eyebrow off.
so i went to toilet. when i came back she was nowhere in sight.
she asked a relief teacher to takecare of my bag.
and this bloody relief teacher no brain also! i told her i need
to take my thermometer. she come and tell me i cant take
bcak my bag cos tt old bitch said so!
HELLO??!! I SAID I WANNA TAKE MY THERMOMETER!
which side of your ear didnt dig??!! need my help?
i'll make sure u got deft! ma de!

so after temperature taking i went to look for that old bitch
but she jus gave me that fucking look "diao" and den she
walked off!
so i rushed back for my fnn o lvl practical and guess what?
the fish fillet that i order didnt come! and left with me the
only one who cant do practical!! i was damn mad lah!!!

how unlucky can my day be???!!

so missed my recess with veron jus to get my bag back?
went around school serching for that old faggot!
den when i finally found her, she said why cant i look for her
after assembly and den she could have give me back
my bag and she say i distrup her lesson!
MOTHERFUCKER i did look for u and you didnt want
to see me!?! den i answer her back! she said of cos i dont
want to see you one person. i'm busy, why must i see u?!

HELLO?? THEN IS IT MY PROBLEM TO DISTURB U
WHEN U ARE HAVING UR LESSON TO GET BACK MY BAG?
NO!!! ta ma de she talk jus for the sake of not losing her
face!! nvr use brain! fucker!

so she went back to stuff room to get my bag and den she was
like UNFOLD YOUR SKIRT! (again)
I DONT FOLD MY SKIRT !!!
and she was lk den you buy new skirt. WTF!?!
worst part is when she pass me my bag .
you know what she said??!!

Old bitch: " Look at your uniform!"
me :" i look" ( i tot the rubber band drop out but NO)
old bitch :" this bag match your uniform or not? no right?"

HEY!!!! SINCE WHEN SCHOOL RULE SAY OUR SCHOOL
BAG MUST MATCH WITH THE SCHOOL UNIFORM?!?

SINCE WHEN SCHOOL RULE SAY WE CANNOT CARRY
RED BAGS TO SCHOOL?!

I'VE BEEN CARRYING THIS BAG FOR GOIN TO 8 MONTHS
THE PRINCIPLES DIDNT EVEN MAKE COMMENTS
OTHER TEACHERS SAY NOTHIN!
AND WHY THE HELL U THIS OLD BITCH WANNA CONFISCATE MY BAG?!?

She insisted that she dont want to see this bag of mine again tml
or she will confiscate it then!

FUCKING RIDICULOUS RIGHT?

Hair band colour wanna check, uniform wanna check, hair wanna check,
bag wanna check, nails wanna check, AND NOW WHAT?!?

even the bags colour also want to check?

and if the teacher think our bag too striking or what they have the right
to confiscate it?!!? WHAT STUPID SCHOOL??!!!?

THIS IS JUST SO FUCKING RIDICULOUS!!!!

and i think i gonna be SUEY for the whole day!
few minute b4 the school ends ,
i had a terrible tummy cramp!!?!

lai ang 3rd day still cramp! and that caused me to
waste 10 bucks of cab fare from sch back to
admiralty!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHAT A ROTTEN LUCK I HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ooopss i hope this blogger wont screw up and not allow me to post this up!

I WILL KILL PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm back! But my laziness never seem to leave me alone.

thus i'm still lazy to blog.

I just wanna thank all those who send me greetings, celebrate

for me , treat me to lunch/dinner/ktv and ofcos those presents,

i wanna thank all of you though i know it is abit too late but heck

i still got the heart right?? =) i appreciate them all~~~ LOVES!

The broken family/boyfriend/friends;

Baby,bros,huyang,veron,chenjie,baby's sister & cousin,wang hui,Keyi,shandy,eliz,

suning,boonpeng,xinghe,katrina,adrian,xiangzheng,junhao,yuen mei, eric,

huimiang,zhewei,huiteng,sheena,rebecca,meijin,jon,darren,ron,sihui,travis,

stephanie,peipei,geokpoh,cailing,huiteng's mum,rowenna,xuehua,lionel,xinlei,

danial,screddy,daryll,jianfeng,Huiming,fengru,huijuan,jingting,ivan,joanne,

pamela,jingming bro, there are some who send me greetings through msn or

called me and i've forgotten your name i'm really sorry but i appreciate it!

THANKS AGAIN! LOVESSSS.

So i've step into 2Os, i'm very very very fucking worry to get any older.

我还要我的轻春我真的不想长大！

i'm also super lazy to upload photos, =X

THE HOLIDAY IS ENDING SOON~~~ omg!!

the thought of those piles of homeworks,

the thought of sitting in the classrom for 8 hours,

the thought of waking up early in morning6am,

the thought of teachers nagging for HWs,

the thought of me failing my test,

the thought of dragging myself to the school,

the thought of staying back for extra lessons,

the thought of my fnn coursework,

the thought of O' LEVEL!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

all those thoughts gives me nightmares!!!

oh what ever! let me enjoy one more week!

let me change my daily routine back to normal

before i get settle down. let me have sometime

to ENJOY!!!! i know its not the time now,

but but but but BUT BUT BUT BUT

I NEED THOSE TIMES BADLY!!!

so i've meet up with some really long time no see friends!

like finally~~~

but i've yet to meet up with the girlies for mahjong session

or overnight out! we shall see~

Baby tell me its definately not a mistake to

fall so deeply inlove with you =)

总是相信有更好的,

会在前方,

就不顾一切的飘洋过海去,

用尽一生寻找倦了累了渴望拥抱,

却找不到,

才忽然想起你还在我身后,

静静等着我,

给我依靠你是我的幸福吗?

为何幸福让人如此忧郁,

爱情渐渐模糊,

你的付出,

我总不够清楚,

你是我的幸福吗?

为何幸福让人变得忧郁,

我爱你不再怀疑,

只想对你说,

我愿意..总是相信有更好的,

会在前方,

就不顾一切的飘洋过海去,

用尽一生寻找倦了累了渴望拥抱,

却找不到,

才忽然想起你还在我身后,

静静等着我,

给我依靠你是我的幸福吗?

为何幸福让人如此忧郁,

爱情渐渐模糊,

你的付出,

我总不够清楚,

你是我的幸福吗?

为何幸福让人变得忧郁,

我爱你不再怀疑,

只想对你说,

我愿意..

okay i'm thinking of changing my blog's url!!!

any kind soul pls help me with my blog?

2007-05-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY huiTENG & PEI PEI!
like finally finally FINALLY huiTENG can watch NC16
Movies le.

After 4 days of 'cold war' i thought you were leaving me.
I have to admit it isnt you fault due to my unreasonable
attitude, but you know me better than anyone else that
whenever i'm angry you just have to talk nicely to me for
5 minutes and i'll be back to normal. you know how stubborn
i am but yet you refused to give in like you always do.
you refused to talk to me nicely and sayang. If only you
talk to me nicely, sayang me, we wouldnt end up not talking
for 4 days! I SWEAR IS A MENTALLY TORTURE!
we both were acting strong, acting cool just simple because
we dont wanna take the first step! and you know you would
always take the first step so why didnt you do it earlier?
why must u let both of us undergo this mentally torture!?

No one else know how much we suffer for each other till we
saw each other last night. my heart breaks and it hurts so badly.
If only you give in to me earlier -.- oh well what matters is that
WE ARE FINE NOW ;)

SOME PHOTOS I TOOK LAST WEEK.

2007-04-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

Some pictures i wanted to post last week but too lazy.

The night at MoMo. Freaking blur, My eyes cant open due

to the flash.

Couples in BROWN :) If u notice, we usually wear the same

colour shirt when we were out together. we love it!

Below are the pictures at his ah ma house. Couples in PURPLE ;)

the picture quality just sucks. my W800i aint really in good working
conditions due to OVER-STORAGE of photos. -.-
My bro just reboot the desktop this morning. i only managed
to save some pictures and the rest all gone =( i dare not save to many
cos my 1gb thumbdrive might just expload like my the other 4gb one.
sad case. My bro has just set up the laptop! well though it isnt any
other GOOOD laptops but still it is a laptop. lols. so i'm currently using it.

2007-04-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

Books are always not in my mind when it comes to weekends.
i know i'm SUPER lazy. Without me realising that o lvl chinese
is actually just 1 more month away! Yet i'm still not in the study
mode! whats wrong with me? i wish to know!

School days are not getting any better instead its getting worst
with HELL LOTS OF HOMEWORKS! i've been dragging my
chinese compos and till now i think i own 3 compos? HOW?

Okay schools aside! I've got NOTHING intresting to post!

-Friday-
Planed to have an outing with the girls but as usual, it was
cancelled!

so it was my 2nd or 3rd time leaving school so early! at 12.30!
this really shows how busy sec 4 lifes are! sh*ts!
headed home right after school while most of them either staying
back for M.T or Amaths remedials. Took a 45 mins nap. Bath and
put some basic makeups and i headed down to clementi to meet
baby. Jian zi fetched us to his grandma house at pasir pangjang as
it was her 75th birthday! Having a buffet there .So many relatives!
so many grandchildren and i enjoyed myself there. Again jian zi send
us home to baby's house at arnd 12 plus.

-Saturday-
Baby went to work early in the morning while i slept till 9 and
in order not to get any naggings from teachers i attend the saturday
maths tutorial. my time slot is actually 8.30 but as i was unable to
wake up so i always attend 10.30 that time slot. it was SUPER boring!
i wish i can draw out but inorder to pass my maths i HAVE got NO
other choice but to drag my ass to sch on saturday moring.
End at 12, headed back to baby's place and i had my lunch, bath,
awhile later i fell asleep till baby came back and waked me up at 5 plus.
had dinner den doll up again and we cabed down to red hill for sin dua
with er jie. it end super late! at 12 den we cabbed down to meet his
brothers outside Momo. we went in till 4 plus and when on our way
home inside the cab that is when THE CONFLICT BETWEEN BABY
AND I STARTED! we headed down to yishun as earlier he promised
to bring me to eat. but i have got no more appetites. and that is
when the conflicts gets worst! all the way till last night! -.-

Was really very unhappy with those words that came out from his
mouth! first time he said such hurtings words which really stab
into my heart like a knife. oh well we are fine now =)

i hate the feeling of trisome! cos that is when u are trying to stand in
between and gets involed in us... oh well what crap am i toking?

2007-04-11T10:54:00.000+08:00

FInally i'm done with that killer -nafa test! 5 stations were still okay but
still i had bodyaches! so yesterday we had our major killer 2.4km run!
i thought i've 'stored' enough energy for the past few months since january.
but nevertheless i still had difficulties completing that fucking FIVE runs
around the school! for a moment i thought i could not be able to finish it
but NO! i passed my 2.4! hohos. yea with that pathetic 15.31mins!
heck care about the grades so long as I PASS!!! so yea fuck that nafa test!
i did not attend school due to my swollen eyes! eye infection? contact lens
really gives me hell lots of problems! plus my two legs seems to be paralised!
this explains how weak i am! and i should seriously consider about the advice
baby gave me which was to go for jogging! so many times he wants to go
jogging with me but i turn him down. lols I HATE TO EXCERCISE LAH!

lessons were pretty boring. esp Pure geog! I HATE HUMAN geography!
so dry so boring! no fun at all!!!

During bio lesson! study about plants -.-

Jonathan the future biologist!

with irvin! too 'shy'

should i change my w800i to this phone?
seriously i hate changing phones when i've got ALL
my things in the phone ! i still <3 my w800i lah!

This how innocent my baby can be at time ;)

2007-04-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

IF ONLY I STIKE 4D AND BE RICH!!!

I NEED MONEY!!! seriously i need money!!!

$2000was in my bank and i'm now left with
$38.85 inside my account!!! OMG!!! where
the hell did i spent my money on???

BAD BAD BAD holiday plus weekend!

mahjong for whole night caused me a terrible
back pain!

No money, no life! no nothing!

2007-04-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

*朋友*

朋友是: 孤单时的友伴

快乐时的笑容

痛苦时的知己

崩溃时的支柱

不在乎一切

朋友就是朋友

有福同享

有难同当

亲情是与生俱来的

爱情侧是一触即发的

唯独友情需要不断施肥灌溉

才能随着时间逐—长

因此友情是奇妙的

也是可贵的

有缘千里来相会，相逢何必成相识

2007-04-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

I think no point signing up for Saturday's programme
since i could hardly make it for the lesson. i know i should
go for as many extra lessons as possible as i am just way
too weak in my studies. anw i'll think abt it again.
And i should seriously date MJ out more often for tuition!
i need her help~~~~~ MJ hear me???
有心无力 -.- pfft~~~

Was plainning to go town with baby but end up playing
mahjong and having steamboat at his house =)
all his sis were at home so many people and defintely
that means more people more fun =D

i'm planing where should i go next weekend or rather
what should i do! cos only weekends baby is available!
and that means he is ALL MINE since we could hardly
see each other or even talk to each other! And definately
that makeS me treasure him even more!

And and and ... I hope even though most of us have our
bf but seriously i think we still need sometimes for
GIRLFRIENDS ! yups~~~ so BOYFRIENDS listen here
dont over control your girlfriends! hahahas. Hints***

亲情，爱情，友情
oh well craps. i cant control.

2007-03-26T21:05:00.000+08:00

Weekends just fly alway like that! Surprisingly i attended the Jc2W3

programm on saturday. i sign up for it -.- if i have a choice i wouldnt

have sign up. okay nvm for my own good i know it very clearly!

I only went for maths and gave physics a miss. dont ask why! its boring!

so received a message from rx and she needs to calm herself down. LOLS!

she claims that 她失恋了! okay like ALWAYS! so i decided to pei her instead

of meeingt my baby who i have not meet for 6 days! we wanted to go changi

airport, later change our mind to ice-skating ended up we were at causeway

seoul garden! we stayed there for 3 hrs plus! lols and had hell lots of fun!

but stupid! so after that she went to meet her friend as i have to spent sometime

with my baby! so i went to meet him! i miss him thats for sure! and i began

to think that though we have lesser time for each other but that give both of

us to have a chance to actually miss each other deeply! i can tell from the reactions

when he saw me walking towards him, and that makes me love him even more!

我失眠无聊的夜里

常常会打给你

想聊更多更多更多

你morning call给赖床的我

天天这样

默契好到不行

This best describe our relationship =]

So as u can see from the pictures we spent money to play with the eggs! no no eat the eggs.

which i think cost less than 20 cents each! hahas had fun playing with it! and we were so mad!

2007-03-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

I did not go to school today. due to a very simple reason...
not gonna elaborate much on that... so i went down to guardiance
just now to get Mygen life. I saw that on newspaper last night
so i asked my mum for $150 just to get this medicine for
constipation -.- oh well i am scared cause i've been eating so much
and yet no bowels comeing out. it really freaks me! so i HOPE
this medicine would be able to solve my problems! i pray hard!

aww okay i know its craps but ... it concerns about me, my health!
and i read from newspaper that when we do not pass out bowels
a day it is equal to taking 3 pactks of ciggreats a day!omg!!! imagine
how bad constipation is? and i have been suffering that since dont know
when! goshhh! i pray hard for a healthy life =X

PHOTOS TAKEN DURING MARCH HOLIDAY!!!!!!

2007-03-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

20/3/07

BACK TO SCHOOL.
i really felt restless and i guess i really have to pull up
my socks and put in the best efforts! but it is easier
said than done. so much of wanting to pay full attention
but my mind just couldnt make it. cant help but to dozz
off when i was supposed to be doing my work while
the physic teacher was not around instead i spent my
time sleeping! And my F&N coursework is giving me
a big headache. such a BIG burden i would say. due to the
very last minute work so i have to rush through research
and done with it! so much of school stuffs ithink i'll just stop
here for now. i've still got tons of works to be done!

And did i mention i got the letter for "Meet the parents session"?
yes i got that! it really show how atrocious my results are!
pathetic i would say.

18/3/07

One week holiday has come to an end just like that!
So many things to do yet so little time!
Nevertheless i still had fun during mahjong session
at veron's house and the outing to sentosa with the
lesbies! all the thrilling activities definately help to
reduce the all the stress that we got from school!
pool was fun but i dont know why i was yawning
ALL THE WAY!!! i dont think i was sleepy but somehow
i was yawning all the way! that is just so weird.
trained home with mj and while i was waiting for darling
i met adrain for a drink at mac. after he left i waited for
darling under a block and something really SCARY
happened!!!
PHOTOS WILL BE UP SOON =)

2007-03-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

All the random photos which i was
too lazy to post for the past few weeks.

I AM FINALLY BACK TO BLOGGER!!!
Lots of things happening and i am just
too lazy to post. common test are over
and my results sucks! yes sucks!
As i've mentioned very very very long
time ago DONT EVER ASK FOR MY
RESULTS!!! be it i've done well for the
subject or done badly i just HATE people
asking me about my results!Forget about
comparing your bloody high score with me.

Okay so today there was an earthquake
in Singapore! well to be exact in Indonesia?
so we got affected! hey it was rather scary.
For once i tot my life is so precious =) before
i die i must see my baby for one last time
cos i've not see him for the pass 3 days and
hardly tok to him on phone or msg! he was
too busy with his sintua stuff!!!NEGLECT ME!
nvm he'll be free after today!!! and i am very
glad to announce that my baby is going to
ORD real soon!!! hahahas 2 years of army
life and finally 10thmarch he is FREE!!! ;)
okay i know i am overjoyed!

so after 3 days of less communication
yes i would say really really hardly tok
to him! everytime he call me is for lk 30s?
so as a result i think i miss him badly!
yes BABY I MISS YOU BADLY lah!!!
neh neh de as if he will read my blog.
oops i think he will =)

wow long entry! hahas.
tata`

2007-02-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY !!!
i wasnt alone! thank God.
Baby booking out =)

So i received a Guess wallet from
baby. he gave me one day earlier =]
it was really a surprise cos i tot he
would just lk buy the ice cream cake
that i have been asking for the pass
few days. so he said he will get it on
valentine day. instead he got me
a guess wallet. He cant find anything
else to give me cos what ever he can
think of he have already bought for
me last year. I KNOW I'M A LUCKY
GIRL! baby i do appreciate everythin
u have done for me alright!!!

Baby didnt want to meet me after
school as he said that i should not
skip remedial lessons -.- so basically
i spent my valentine day with miss lai
and those who attend the remedial
lessons. so pethetic i know.
And i had a really hard day in school
cos i receive a GREAT present that
is GASTRIC PAIN! omg!! it is killing
me for the whole fucking day! its lk
not those u are hungry or wad and u
get gastric pain mine is different!
i dont even know how to describ but
it just hurts and its killing me still NOW.

so i shall go meet my darling now as it
is STILL 14th feb still valentine day.
before the time reach 12 i better meet
him so at least i get to see him on valentine
day at least i spent few mins of valentine
day with my darling =] sound pethetic .
but hecks...

tata.. photos will be up soon=]
i am too lazy lah..

2007-02-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY
DARLING BABY!!! =D
hahas i know he is one year older
but nvm abt tt i still love him=)

There he was busy posing =X

So now my turn.

Present is inside =]

This is the present

black & white couple
a day out with the girls too.

Big Henessy & Huge Martel
for 50cent & $1 coins.

Baby came to fetch me last night
so yea basically i am the FIRST
one to wish him happy birthday
and we had hell lots of fun having
the mid night walk and when the
moment the time pass 12am
i kisssssssssssed and whispered
happy birthday baby!!! omg that
was just so romantic can? imaging
the couple walking under the bright
stars above the sky and that moment
he gets one year older =] despite the
laughter i still shed tear =[ that
was because i was too happy and
also the song baby sang to me was
really touching. so yea i cried =(
but i was tear with joy. awww nvm
the feelings nobody would understand.

after school;
headed causeway with veron den she
left first and i waited for baby, his
sis and mum to come. we went to
have our dinner at jacks place =D
i loveee it but it was so expensive!

oh and last saturday was a day out
with girlfriends and my darling boy
together with his friends.
despite of the crowds and aint able
to get a single shit we still had fun
spying on someone* yea SOMEONE!!
hahas... ROMANTIC siaaaaaa...

i'm lazy to post photos but i'll still post
some tml =)

have to rush for coursework.
tata....

2007-02-08T20:10:00.000+08:00

3 hours of sleep last night
was killing me today in school!
it was a really dreadful day.
i felt weak i couldnt concentrate
in class at all. especially after
recess. Miss chong was not
here so we were all given a
compre ws to do and there was
a jc relieve teacher. i couldnt help
but kept dozzed off after so many
times of 'wakeee up' 'wakee up'
'go and wash your face' 'have u finish
your work' 'wakeee up' omg after
so many times of the teacher askin
me to wake up i still dozzed off!
i cant help but i was really too tired!
plus my contact lens are driving me nuts!
this pair of contact lens are giving me
hell lots of problems.

And i have a very bad breakout of
pimples due to the fact that I AM
LACK OF SLEEP and my digestive
system aint working well!!! bloodysh*t!
therefore all the poison thingys all
pop out from my face! instead of goin
down to my anus! f*ck!!
i seriously need 8 hours of sleep
everyday inorder to have a good
complextions. but tell me!!
WHERE GOT TIME!!!!!!!!

Arghhh enough of said, i am gotta
sleep EARLY tonight! 10.30pm?
1 more hour to go..

tatas~~~~

2007-02-06T16:26:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS OUR DEAREST
MEI JIN'S SWEET 6TEEN =)
6/2/07 hohohoslike finally she
reach so called legal age!u know
why? cos she can go clubbingat
MOS! well MOS only hor. lols.
and she can play pool watch nc16
and the list goes on. once again
HAPPY SWEET 6TEEN =)
catch up soon ! veron said after 9feb
we go play pool!!! lols

MONDAY;

Last Saturday when my family &
Iwent to collect our pink IC.
the ceremony was grand!
we haveto go on stage and shake hand
withDr Teo Ho Pin. lols. *shivers*
but the whole event was damn LONG!

Tuesday;
So much works are given by teachers
right on my face that need to be done.
i can feel the stress already.i learnt a
lesson which is never everpile up all
ur homeworks till thevery last minute!
you will end up likeme rushing through
all the homeworksfeeling so guilty not
handing in on time.therefore i have
been good enough toburn midnight oil
till like 1 plus!i finished 2 history essays!!
mind u4 pages long!!! OMG!! and
2 chinesecompo! (zuo wen & ying yong wen)
another 4 pages or is it 5 pages?
arghhh i can die!!!And now with me still
got thisBIG BIG burden whcih is
FNN coursework!i have yet to start on
the reserch wherethe date line is 9 feb
THIS friday!!!tell me how am i goin to
finish???Not forgetting plus daily
homeworks!I WANNA DIE!!!

I have a question in my head now!
oh well isnt our journal supposed to be
something very personal???
Ooops.. okay shall stop here. ZIP***

2007-02-06T16:23:00.000+08:00

Had a small argument with baby
lastnight due to my pms moodswing!
okay and it is expected to have
mood-swing everymonth without fail.
And i'm glad that my baby understand
that. he let me cool down and b4 i
dozedoff to sleep he called and tried
to cheerme up but i was still in a v bad
mood.so i went to sleep inorder to
avoid further arguments.

And i did not go school today
the reason is very simple.
i thought i could make it but failed.

2007-01-28T17:12:00.000+08:00

After so many years, i thought i've finally
grown up. young adult i would call myself.
so many problems happened in so little time.
and it seems never ending. I used to hate
them for causing so much pain in my teens
or rather i still hate them now. i'm becoming
a young adult and i realised all these are just
part and parcels of LIFE.
Family , boyfriend and friends ya they are the
most important people in our life but yet we
get heartaches from them. why cant they just
show some care and concern when u really need
them ? why are they not the one who is there to
share the problems and the unhappiness we
are facing? why is it always those not-so-close
friends who are showing care and concern?
where are the close ones in our life have gone to?
i must admit everything is drifting apart.
i feel the gap in between i got the strange feelings
and it is all so hard to accept.
i dont hope for much, i just wish to have those
listening ears when i am down.

i'm crying silently to myself .
Dear lord,lead me through
the darkness please.

2007-01-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO
MY BRO!!! well he just went to
army on the 12th! lols.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO TRAVIS!

& HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO ZHE WEI!!
sorry i dont have a photo with u =)
HAPPY BELATED birthday to BONFURT!

I didnt attend schoold today!
due to the very very bad sore
throat i had last night plus the horrible
cough! my nose was totally blocked!
i guess the raining days
season is causing me to be in this
state! so darling gave me 2 pills
and forced me to drink the cough
serup that i hated most! And then
my whole body felt weak and not long
after i took the pills i fell asleep! till my
alarm woke me up but still i felt weak
due to the pills so msg veron told her
i am sick & not going to sch & i fell asleep
till 12 plus. woke up to look for drinks.
den i slept all the way till 4 and we ordered
pizza hut! baby ordered so much & we
only managed to finish half of it! wasted!

2007-01-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

Saturday;

my one & only

Martell makes me 'blush'

He say i'm his one & only too ;)

baby's jie jie

Me, Baby & Xue li

Teguila makes me go wolala!

I have to admit i'm such a nice
daughter! believe or not i cleaned
my whole house for the whole day
till 3pm. i washed my bedsheets
and everything! well i have to
do it as my parents are still not
back yet! they will only be back
on tuesday!which also means
less freedom!

after everything i dolled up and
trained down to TPY to meet
screddyat abt 4.30. den later headed to
bishan to meet ren jie. had our
dinner and i went off to meet
my boy we went red hill cos
he got sin dua.. den later at 11pm
we cabbed down to Momo to meet
xinghe & jeff. baby's sis with her frens
were at the other table. we had fun
playing five ten yong xin joined us
means more fun cos i always win him~~~
drank till i vomited at the end.
damn giddy... we cabbed back home
at 6 in the morning.
slept for few hours and i woke up at
11plus. my stomach was burning
due to the alcahol. was really burning!
and now my throat hurts~~

went back home at 4 and i washed up
again dolled up and got ready to go for
a dinner! as the whole family left with
me and younger bro so bo bian we have
to go. the dinner was okay! i always lk the
cold dish =)
so i'm back home not long ago .
so basically i enjoyed myself on the weekends!
i know i shall stop the fun IMMEDIATELY!
but...

2007-01-06T11:01:00.000+08:00

FIRST POST FOR YEAR 2007!!!

& today is 6thJan07! which is VERONICA
LEONG'S BIRTHDAY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! like finally u
are 16 and i know your so looking forward
to this day cos u can watch nc16 movies &
POOL!!! woohoooo..

okay lets just talk abt xmas & new year!

I DID NOT HAVE ANY COUNT DOWNS!!!
SUCKS I KNOW! but wel wads pass is
a past! i shall look forward to 2007!!!
reason why i did not countdown on xmas eve is
because i was working!
& reason why i did not count down on new year
eve is because i had a major argument with
boyfriend & everything just ruined like tt!
and so i spent my night at veron's hse drinking!

i'm glad to say that we are fine now ;)

BACK TO SCHOOL!
it definately SUCKS! i feel like i'm back
to hell again after 2 months in heaven!
time pass so gawd damn fast and in a blink
of eyes o lvl is coming!!! i'm starting to get
panic! sad to say i still cant get use to the
day life as i have been working night shift
the pass 2 mths and most of my day time
was sleeping! & i'm awake at night!
now this habit is with me! therefore i felt
extreamly SLEEPY during lesson!

well i'll just end my post here ..
ps;i'm lazy to upload photos =/

tata~

2006-12-23T07:44:00.000+08:00

Lets just blog about the bitches around
us! they are everywhere!!!
I dare to say i am prettier than her!
i swear i aint cheap like her!
i swear i dont sound like her!
(DAMN FUCKING ACT CUTE VOICE!)
i dont know she act or she was born
like that! but i just HATE IT!
cos to me they sound bitchy!

For goodness sake that she know
we are attached and yet she wanna
play a part in between us!
fucking ask my boy to stead with her!
bloody fool! i know he is attractive
but get it clear HE IS ATTACHED!

This fucking bitch even dare to put
my guy's photo on her frenster!
WTH IS GOING ON? KNNBCCB!!!

i was damn freaking pissed when
i saw thier conversation! i burst out
crying and i ran out of his hse!
messaged him and asked for break
up! i didnt bother the passerby s
looking at me, i was yelling and crying!
i couldnt control!
i decided to give up! and that was
the 3rd time i mention breakup
in this 1 year and 1 month relationship!

in the evening, i return him all his stuffs
and trying to get all my stuffs back
from his house! After so many phone calls
from his brothers friends and sis,
i decided to believe him, i decided to give
him a chance ! i believe wad they told
me were really true! we are grown ups!
i have to admit the scars of my broken
heart are deep and i am sure it wont heal
that easily. maybe it remains there forever
who knows. but for now i just wish no more
such things happen again! as for my heart
just let time heal the wounds.

headed causeway for KFC at 8 plus
and we trained down to amk to meet
his two friends and we headed dbl 0!
borrow darling sisters's IC again =)
it was wei li's birthday!lots of them
turn up!. stayed there till 3 den we went
to eat and cabbed home with the other 2
staying at woodland. sleep till 9 received
a call from rongxin. she wanna meet me
but i was lazy to go out so asked her to
buy food to darling's hse for us.
slack there the whole day. i managed to
sleep awhile while rx was busy with the
com! and darling went for theory test.
i was sleepin lk a pig when he was back.
he woke me up for work at 4.30 and den
i bath and went for work!
thats how my offdays were spend!
with tears, laughters and all the mixed
feelings, emotions!

i gtg get some rest now. damn shag
after work!

2006-12-16T10:48:00.000+08:00

FINALLY I'M BACK TO BLOG! =)

post some random photos took the past
few days first!

Rong xin & ME=)

taken after work! while waiting for
our transport. we were damn shag!

Me & ACE oh well she is a Butch =)
and a tatoo siao!she just rawks lah!
with her around our working days
are FUN FUN FUN! =D

DARLING & I MY LOVE <3

JJ & I , Alvin & I
alvin has become more & more yandao!

left;Daren is just so damn CUTE!
right; Me & teng! small and the big eyes!

darling, daryl & xinghe
stay over at darlings place.

seoul darden with them=D
Friday; 15/12/06

A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO;
DAREN, JOLEAN & ALVIN!
hahas they are siblings!
i guess i missed out the fun at
alvins birthday party yesterday.

took a cab to yio chu kang mrt
to meet my bro right after my work!
he was goin to EXPO for his army
enlistment! means he is goin for NS!
we reached there kinda ealry 6.50am!
wait for the shuttle bus and we went
to the camp! guess what? the officer said
tt my bro got a silver for napfa test
therefore he can enlist later at Jan!
cos he dont have to go for physcical trainin!
soooo good loh! and he can ORD 1 month earlier
2 years later. lols. bused home and i slept
from 11 till 4.30 woke up by darling!
we went causeway for dinner and den met
his sis and mum at yoshinoya! went shopping!
bought alvin's present!
cab back to darling's place at around 10.
den we cabbed down to meet xing he
daryl and his gf at yishun! had the famous
nasi lemak! drink and chatted about thier
past! and i met ACE there! hahas fated!
had lots of fun there we cabbed home at 2 plus.
and darling went to work just now in the
morning and i cabbed home in the morning!
now i'm blogging here!

i'm being very very lazy!

& i'm in deep shit cos out of 6 tutoring
lessons i only atten 1! and school
had be calling me everytime i miss
the lesson. i hope to make it up
next week !

holidays gonna end in a blink of eyes!
and we all are going back to be a
guai guai school girls and boys =(

have to admit that i enjoyed my holidays!
be it at work or off days! i'm
enjoying myself! and i really hope
to settle my heart down for 2007 SOON!
am gonna get my books next week
and ya not forgettin school bag, shoe,
etc etc.

LOVES;

2006-12-04T08:08:00.000+08:00

Friday;

i cant remember what i did on friday
actually, oh i got my first pay =D
it was delayed. i shud have got it on 22nd!
so headed for seoul garden after i got the
money! damn full!
went down to meet baby at mac and we
chilled there with the laptop till 3 plus!

Saturday;
wake up late. cabbed home at around 1.45
was supposed to meet darling at 3.15
and i forgot i go and set my alarm at 3.05
supposed to be 2.05. so baby ringed me up
too see if i am ready and he got a shocked
to hear my sleepy voice. LOLSs.
so we changed to 4pm.
quickly bath and doll up den i went down
to meet him and we headed to bugis=]
i got myself a bag that i like v much and short.

so trained down to red hill as baby needed go
sin dua. ended at 10 plus den we trained back
with baby's mum, da jie and gini.
we went to watch midnight show excluded
baby's mum.
after the movie cabbed back home den
baby and i with the laptop we went to
admiralty mac cos xing he and daryl were
there waiting for us.
we chilled there till 3 plus den back to
darlings place together. lots of funny things
happened. LOLSs.
at arnd 5 i was damn shag so fell ssleep and i
woke up at 7. den the rest carry on sleepin
so darling sent me down and i cabbed home
i slept all the way till 4.45pm by darling's call.
and den washed up and off to work!
no i'm back home! and its a brand new day.
instead of goin to school and fell aleep there
i might as well skip the lesson and sleep at
home! am just too tired! nvm i will go school
on tue and wed! =D i hope so =p

ps/ got few pictures but i'm lazy now.
will upload soon.

tata i'm off to sleep

2006-11-28T07:59:00.000+08:00

Pictures on previous post! with ;
Baby, yongxing and rongxing!
Midnight 3 plus -_-' mad? but FUN!

Monday;

i have been sleeping the whole day!
as u know i merely slept for only 3
hours the past two days.
i wanted to head down bugisV but i
just couldnt wake up! so i decided to sleep
all the way from 8 am to 8.30 pm!
and from 10pm all the way till this morning
7.30am! HAHAHAS. my sleeping timing
is just WEIRD LAH!

the reason i slept so early is because
my aunty visited me so to advoid the
cramp i decided to sleep early.
nevertheless i still cant excape!
was in great pain last night!
feel like killing myself but think of it,
it just scare me! oh well donnoe what
i'm talkin also.

2006-11-27T07:12:00.000+08:00

GONNA BE A LONG POST! i'm
long winded la.

saturday;

It was the worst night ever.
i never dare to think of it again.
i almost lost my precious one due
to some reasons. it was a nightmare.

i never wish to leave him neither
do i want to love any other guys out
there. i know and i am sure that i love
my darling wholeheartedly but sometimes
it is just hard to gain TRUST.

i strongly agree that TRUST plays a very
important role in a sucessful relationship
and this time round it is the word TRUST
that cause this sweet couple to suffer
so much. -NOBODY understands-

i broke down in tears during work and i
really cried my lungs out during the break.
i thought everything just gonna END.
i must thank all those people like wen min,
li jing, ah yong, ace and of cos my line leader.
they were there for me, they told me to be
strong. they cheered me up! they make me
laugh though at tt point of time my heart was
bleeding. i couldnt wait for the time to pass
6.15am which means GO HOME!
chenjie treat me breakfast to cheer me up.
lols how nice. so finally reached home.

and it was SUNDAY morning. 7am.
i washed up and stuff yet i cant fall asleep.
so used com till 9 plus. decided to take a
rest as it was my off day so meeting wang hui
at bugis at 6.30pm. still i couldnt sleep.
all the while i was lying on my bed but my
eyes refused to shut till around 1 plus finnally
i can sleep. i only slept for lk 3 hours and
my Big bro ringed me up and asked me to
meet him at CWP to repair his N73 at 4.45pm.
so i have to wake up, washed up and doll up
get everythin ready and i left to him him
afterwhich trained down to bugis to meet
wanghui. we have got hell lots of things to talk!
LOLS! no doubt girls are like that!
we had our dinner at 6.45 and we chat all the
till 8 plus. den walk around bugis junction
den later to bugis V. i wanna get tt bag but
not enough cash yet they dun accept NETS.
so i decided to get it other day =)
got myself a shade. niceee~~~ damn cool la.
i now i'm buey ba. nvm if u think that i'm
ugly cos my boyfren said that i'm pretty =)

so went seperate ways at arnd 10.
she went back to tiongbaru. while i waited
for darling at city hall. i have to admit that
MY BOYFRIEND IS ONE REALLY NICE
GUY cos he gives in to me EVERYTIME!
everytime after a fight, after a few hours
of cool down session, darling will definately
call to say sorry and try to cheer me up.
He can be the most guai lan guy in this
world but he definately can be a nicest
boyfriend. i have to thx VERON! we sort
things out already. xing he no to forget!

so trained back to darlings place.
bought kfc at admiralty and den bought
pepper crab back too. yong xing came
to darlings place to watch soccer. so we
had crabs together with his sis too.

after the soccer match which is about 2
plus. yong xing drove us to vista point
to fetch rong xing. we headed to a
multi carpart storey. to the top lvl
and we chilled there. took photos and some
were freaking too. =/
left carpark at around 4. went 7-11 to get
some food and beer. headed back to darling 's
place. till 5 plus yong xing drove rong xing back
dendarling book in at arnd 6 and i went home!
so here i am now blogging.

i am feeling really shag! 2 days i only slept for
merely 3 hours!.

and today is my off day too! =]

i wanna get some sleep for now!

photos will upload later.

tata...

2006-11-25T07:36:00.000+08:00

Thursday;

Went for singing session at party world.
all i got to say it was FUN~~~

met darling awhile at causeway had LJS.
and i went back to party world again =)

Friday;

i slept till 11 plus. wash up and stuff den
i took 912 over to meet darling on bus
and we headed down to CWP for seolgarden
till bout 4 cabbed back to darling's place
den i went off for work at 5.

i love to be with you ;)

and my finger nails are getting
longer and LONGER =)

2006-11-21T08:09:00.000+08:00

TO: BABY
HAPPY BELATED 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!
;) i'm really happy that we actually come
so far. our relation is not on and off.
though lots of arguments in between
but it never ever break us apart.
1 year is definately not that easy.
i am just glad :)

POOL SESSION AT YISHUN SAFRA ;)

VIVO CITY WITH DARLING
ON 181106

HEADED DOWN TO CHANGI CHALET.

End the pictures with my darling's
sexy figure. DROOOOL*.*

ps: no pictures on clubbing.
shaggg.

Okay now shall just let me update
on last week's schedule. hope to cut it
short.

FRIDAY;
came back from work and i slept till
12. Jon called and comfirm with me
the time for pool session. so we decided
to meet at 2.30 at yishun. i went there
earlier to meet my boy cos he booked out.
went north point to have our lunch and
also wait for the rest to come.
went yishun SAFRA for pool session
with my boy, shandy, jon. melson
irvin and wei heng. played till about 6 den
we went off to different ways. guys went
town, shandy went woodland and i cabbed
back to darling's place dolled up and
get ready to go clubbing. i even borrowed
darling 's 4th sis's IC. incase they wan to
check my IC. cabbed down to double O.
darling was saying that first time he kana
check when he go double O.. lols. so i took
out his sis's IC and den they let me in..
hahahas. funny. they never ask me for the
no. i have memorised the IC no while
i was in the cab. lols. but they didnt ask.
so i drank alot till i got hang over!...
not tt bad though at least i manage to bring
darling back home.

SATURDAY;
wake up late, had breakfast/ lunch at
darling's place. bath, doll up and we
cabbed down to vivo city at around 4.30.
didnt really shop, just walk around and we
bought some foods and went to the top lvl
to enjoy the scenary. stayed there till about 7.30
den went trained down to red hill.
darling went sin dua and i sat outside and
wait for him..
went to a coffee shop with his sis and lots
of frens / uncles/ kor kors. LOLS!
den later cabbed down to changi chalet.
at 11.45. raymond's girlfrens bday.
so raymond drive us to 7-11 and den
he drive round and round just to see the ah guas.
some are really pretty. was damn funny.
they wave at the ah guas & they wave back to us.
hahahahas. den in the mid night,
raymond drive us to east coast to play pool.
altogether i think 8 of us went. den drive
us back to chalet again and we all check out
at around 8am
SUNDAY;
back to darlings place.
i sleep till abt 1 and cabbed home to have some
more slp and den off to work .

pictures upload later my com is lagging now.
shucks*

2006-11-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

what i did last week i totally forgotten.
lols. just put some pictures i took last
week then. i have STM.

MONDAY;

Stayed over at veron's house with
RX. i just have to admit we had so
much fun! no mahjong session but
girls talk. at that point of time i was
having some arguments with baby.
and RX was quarrelling with her
darling too. hais... we decided to
have a girls night. we headed down
to 7-11 to have cupnoodles for
supper at playground. it was fun.
midnight. damn shiok. just that our
handphones kept ringing
and the residents must be damn
fucking pissed and threw something
down. lols. stroll all the way to yewtee
mrt. it was in the middle of the night.
i must say the journey was so fun. hahas.
went back to her hse there and we
decide to take some pictures. we only
took one or two and the next photo
freak us out. cos me & veron sit in the
middle of the road and RX took a picture
of us. guess wad? we can only see
our body but no heads! LOLS.
we ran all the way back . hhahahas.
we didnt sleep at all. =)

Trained down from yew tee to lavender.
meet my family to collect our passports.
den later i headed down to eunos and took
a cab to bedok to find a fren of mine.
my phone was totally flat when i reach
eunos mrt. so lucky b4 tt he send me the
address. but still i cant remember cos
phone was swtiched off. and i was walkin
round and round bedok res 631 coffeeshop.
hais. so i phoned veron ask her log in my
msn and call him and ask him for no.
den finally i contacted him and he came
to fetch me. he said he waited for me for
about 30 mins. lols. lovely fren indeed.
chatted alot, he show me lots of tatoo
designs. i am so tempted to have one
on top of my ass. waist there. But when
he on the electricity the sound was already
so scary. and i am scared of pain. =/
i will cry. lols. around 4.30 i cabbed
back to admiralty and meet my bro they
all den after awhile i went to work..

2006-11-07T14:49:00.000+08:00

I AM TIRED!!!
12 hours of work definately
gonna kill me sooner or later!
but who cares? for now i just
need more cash$$$
and the job is well paid ^^
how sad that they gonna
deduct 20% of my pay for CPF!
which means i will have lesser
money! its okay, savings for the
future is good ^^

lets just have a quick update
for last week =)

Friday;
went to the ICA building for
the oath and also making the new
passport and the pink ic.
we took the pictures for passport
and ic beforhand and for the 5
of us and it cost 50 plus.
bloody hell when we reach there
they said the photos got shadow
and whatever shit so cannot!
and they want us to go down to
2nd lvl to take new photos
they just wanna make money out
of it! goddamnit! whats worst is the
aunty there damn fuck up lor!
was damn fucking pissed off!
trust me i was already in a bad
mood that the photo tt i took b4
hand was damn nice and now it
cannot be use and i have to take
another one by that fuckin lady
makes me even more pissed!
i was cursing her ! fuck sia.

Saturday ;
went to the work place early in
the morning and they brieft us
about the work. headed back to
darling's place and had my lunch
then i help darling cut his hair.
he said that this time is not nice.
he like the previous hair cut.=[

sunday;
trained down to TPY at noon
for 'yum cha' with darling;s family.
his his mum,3 elder sis and Gini too=]
big group! and the dim sum (spelling?)
there was damn damn super nice!
we were all enjoying ourselves.
and it cost $180plus =/ went shopped
around and we trained back to admiralty
and i headed for work immediately
after that. (first day of work!)

monday;
came back from work at around 7.15am.
washed up and changed and i fell asleep
immediately! den wake up work again!
till this morning .

so tue to thur i am offf =]
this company thier working day is weird.
we only work 3 to 4 days a week!
and we have a calender to foolow =]
cool. so for this 2 months my total
working day is 31 days.. and thank god
18 nov is my offday =] wooohooo.
not forgetting 25th dec is also my off day!
hahahas.
i wanna get more sleep for now!!!!

cyas. ^^
i

2006-11-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

I
JUST
NEED
SOMEONE
TO
CONFIDE
IN
!!!

why
do
i
seem
like
a
lost
B I T C H
...

2006-10-31T11:43:00.000+08:00

For a shield from the storm,
for a friend i turn to YOU.

Shouldnt we be proud to be known
as the closest true friends?people
envy our friendship, this kinda feeling
is just so great. After reading
other people's blog, after hearing
so many stories of friendship problems,
backstabbing of thier own best friends,
treating thier own best friends like a
ball,i've come to realised that how
strong our friendship is. we aint like
others, we are special, we are so
different from others.
one thing for sure i treasure this
friendship.From a group of 5 and now
we are left with only the 2 of us.
i agree with people saying
truefriends we only need one or two.
this i totally agree. and i hope this friendship
will just continue even if we are in
different school. all we need is just a
little bit of time to have some catch up
sessions and yes we shall maintain
this friendship =)
VERONICA LEONG JIA WEN ,
holidays here, we wont be able to see
each other 5 days a week, maybe
once a week or wad la hor...
remember i'm just call away =D

loves;

PEOPLE ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS!!!
oops not to neglect school works =)

2006-10-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

i'm just lazy to type. so i decided
to post pictures. =)

2006-10-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Pictures of the day =)

baby with bday girl's present. Note; the
bear is bigger than baby =D

Headed down to bugis with darling boy.
He wanna get himself a long sleeve shirt
and a jacket.
where as i got myself a shirt too. :)

after which we headed to the mac to wrap
the present for his god sis Candra.
and i decorated my w800i with diamonds.

went up to jeanyip to find the birthday
girl cos she was there having makeups.
went to a hotel at bugis(forgot the name)
and that is where her party was held.
super grand! omg i want i want i want also;)
anw HAPPY 21st birthday girl =]

and i have been having headache the whole
day! gawd.. it is killing me. boy said it is
due to the lack of sleep plus my contact lenses.
hurrrr...

okay i gonna get some rest for now.

ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS people.

=D

2006-10-27T15:44:00.001+08:00

Left; took a photo b4 i left my house to town.
Right; that is the shirt and a short i bought
at fareast.

Bought a taped jean.

And tata a pointed heel =)
Yes those pictures of items i
bought explains why i love
shopping with mum! hohoho.

Took this pic last week when we went
vivocity. aint that great though.
so many shops not open yet plus i
think it is TOO BIG! more for high
class people(personal opinions)
definately not me. aint tt great lah.

wednesday;

wednesday was a holiday, nonono
not a holiday just tt we didnt attend
sch. so went over to look for my boy.
headed to FEP in late afternoon cos he
wanna buy nike shoe plus i wanna shop.
trainned down to bishan J8to meet
up with his frens and had dinner.
crapped alot. funny dudes.

Thursday;
went school just to get the report
book and report to the cca stations.
THATS IT! waste of time.
decided to stay in the auditorium
to watch the chinse singing
competition or sth. i must really
admit tt wan jun sang really well!

headed lot 1 for our all time fav
mee sua and xxl chicken+milk tea.
went home bath and doll up and
i headed FEP to meet my mum.
we shopped till 9 plus=/
my spines were killin me not
forgettin my legs. nvm worth it.
i didnt spent a single cent :)

Friday;
with my boy till 11plus. den went
to meet chenjie.
we didnt go for the interview as the
place was really damn far away .
it is at pasir ris or bedok there.
if i am goin to work there i would
be wastin lots of time on travellin.
so for-get-it! =p

and now i am back at home alone =/
so freaking tired but i just couldnt
sleep. my eyes refused to shut!
hais.. it is a torturing. shall i go
bugis later on with my boy?
i better drop tt idea.
okay so i shall
end my
post .

IT IS NOW OFFICIALLY
SCHOOL HOLIDAYS! :)

2006-10-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD I GOT PROMOTED TO SEC 4^^
but i aint satisfied with the results.

I very much wanted to post about
FRIENDSHIP but something pulls me back.
i am just very very VERY unhappy to see
all these things happpening around me,
though some maybe totally NON OF MY
BUSINESS but i just hate these kinda people.

Their ugly freaking FAKE mask making
me so sick! what is the world going on?
tsk tsk tsk~~~

School was hell boring! i dont know why
they still want us to go back since we all
are simply wasting our time sitting in class,
walking around the school, slack in the
toilet etc. when we could actually stay at
home and catch up with the lack of beauty
sleep before the exams. totally absorb!

I dont know why my mood gets so wrong
these days. i am wondering what is wrong
with me. i am getting 'HOT' easily! tsk!

lots of emotions bottled up but u aint in
the mood to type them out.

" trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
but everybody's changing."

absolutely loathe " PLASTICS "

2006-10-17T19:04:00.000+08:00

NEVER EVER ASK ME FOR MY RESULTS!
cause you know it gonna affect my
mood VERY badly =X i never dare
to think of it. so dont remind me of
results! PLS! I am praying hard to
let me promote to sec 4 and i swear
i will work extra extra EXTRA hard.
so please let me pass and promote.

Those who did well, congratulations!
but dont show it off to me cos i will
slap u left right center! i mean it!
just keep the good grades u have
and share it with ur families and
whoever u want to but NOT ME!
i aint interested!

Those who did badly like me, i feel
sad for u and myself. But whats done
can not be undone. just pray hard
and get a lesson learnt and move on.

expected to fail those subjects, so i
am speechless now!

你的鼓励是我最大的动力

2006-10-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

With baby the whole day :)
have been laughing trough out
muahahaha i love the feeling.
it was so carefree and had a taste
of the childhood once again =]

took 920 to cwp, as i am using
train consession so i did not really
bother to top up my card for bus.
so i put 60cents down and tt driver
wanna check my student pass.
i didnt hear him, baby said he
was damn rude!so i show him
my ez card and the driver bloody
hell talk to me so rude and asked
me to take out my photo.
whoa this time den i heard him,
i was pissed off but baby was even
worst. he told the driver to speak
properly, if he aint happy just
dont be a driver. since he wanna
be driver he jolly well know the
manners. fucking treat the
riders so damn rude. whats worst
when we reach 2nd stop, a malay
guy came up and he also bloody hell
lectured the guy as if he owned the
driver few million bucks. NUTS.

Had breakfast/ lunch at LJ.

i'm tired, shall let the pictures
do the talking.

on the bus to cwp

wasted our money on
this game at the arcade.

back to childhood;)

back to childhood;)

childhood =p

And thats how we spent our day:)

i shall stop here for now
Good nites.

2006-10-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

Was alone at darling hse O.o
so i came home at around 10
and used computer fo awhile
then my tummy started to ask
for food. damn hungry.
So few ppl online. all havin exams.
so Mj was online and she stayed
near me so asked her for lunch
but she was goin out.
so i only had 3 small chocolates.
for breakfast and lunch! O.o
Xiao Hei jio me to lot 1 for pool.
but i didnt go as she is damn pro
at pool so i better not malu myself.
and also i didnt go iceskate with xue
hua as i dont know how to skate. fook.
i am just one damn unsporty type.=X
so i think shopping is still best idea for me.
with rx's accompany we went bugis.
walk around and i only got myself a belt.
i shall head town for more stuffs.
but no $$$. -.-
anw darling book out today again so
i went amk to meet him for dinner.
i coulndt finish the food even though
it was very nice! whats more darling's treat.
i guess my stomach was 'over hungry'
NUMB~~~
cabbed home with darling =)

Some pictures i took today at home :)

2006-10-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

My aunty caused me to have a
very bad MOODSWING =.=
i dont have good temper like
other girls do and i can really
get damn pissed off for small
little things, but this time i dont
think it is just a small matter.
JEALOUSY KILLS
And he dont seem to bother.
He find that i am just being
UNREASONABLE.

Bio paper 2 was a killer too.
i am gonna flunk science too.
not like i didnt study but
somehow whaever i study nothing
goes in to my thick numb skull.
pray hard i dont retain.
honestly i am damn scare!

Tomorrow is the last paper.
and thats all! FINISH!!! NO MORE!!!

ENJOY!!! :)

2006-10-08T19:22:00.000+08:00

My 大姨妈 visited me yesterday
afternoon before i headed cwp to
meet veron.my aunthy visit me
late this month. i dont know why
maybe i have been taking medicines
and therefore the arrival of my aunty
got delayed. =.=X
walk around cwp with veron
as she wanna buy bags and stuff for
her cousins wedding dinner today.
hahas as if it is her wedding sia.
this pretty lady went for facial,
style her hair, got new dress, heels,
oh well everything for her cousin's
wedding... just wait and see! hahas.
VERON BETTER SHOW ME THE
PICTURES =)

came back home at around 6
and then by 7 my tummy hurts
like fuck. i sweat damn hell lot
and was suffering in great pain!
rolling on my bed with a damn hot
water bottle. my mum cooked for
me ginger mee sua and i ate 1/3 of
it and she nagged all the way.
she said i cant even take care of
my own health. i shouldnt have
ate the icecream waffle at Gelare
with veron since i know i gonna
have tummy cramp.. regreted*

Darling came to fetch me,
his mum and sis were in the cab too.
watched Rob-b-hood or sth lk tt.
hahas damn funny. no doubt
jackie chan's product.

gotta study for biology p2 tml.
all the best peeps =]

loves;

2006-10-06T14:39:00.000+08:00

FINALLY I'M BACK!!!
after one long week of EXAMS!
let me take a break alright. i havent seen
darling for 12 days!!! will see him in antoher
few mins times so nvm..
here it goes...

I AM SICK!!!
alright this is just not the time for me
to fall sick! guess wad? first day of EOY
paper i was sick! terrible!!!
was having my english paper and i used
up 6 packets of tissues!
damn it not my luck! i couldnt even
think well! and that is just so bad!
i was feeling terrible so immediately
after the papers i rushed back to
admiralty and went to the clinic!
i was having fewer then, 38.5!!!
that explains why i coundnt think well!
i am still not okay now due the the cough
that is causing my throats to hurt so
freaking much! i just pray hard that
it dont get worst and have to go for
another throat operation like the other
time! it freaks me! really badly.
hahas anyway my voice is damn sexy
now. darling said so =p

back the the EXAM PAPERS!.
SUPER HARD can?
hais... nothing seems to get into my
mind even though i try to memorise
some formulae and facts into my thick
numb skull but nothing seems to go
in... i know i am gonna fail maths and
physics for SURE! and the humanities?
please let me passssssssss........

will be back soon ;)
good luck for the rest of the papers!

2006-09-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

What is so wrong with the people
around me? or should i say what is
wrong with me? nothing seems to be
right. Heartaches, Shedding of tears,
Dreaming of weird things, feeling
so sick and tired of life.

They are driving me mad!
Family,Relationship,Friendship!
what is going on? Am i changing
or am i just overreacting?

Thursday;
School was per normal just that
i was extremely tired!we only had 1/2
period of english and that is.
Had FNN pratical test. F**k eh not
enough time loh! we only have about
45 minutes to cook and prepare everythin!
after school,
cabbed to irvin's house with
shandy & jon, want to do physics
but well didnt. so they watched
vcd while i was sleeping soundly.

My 2 dishes =]

Irvin's veggie soup and curry.

Jon's

Friday; (today)
school was short today till 12.30
stayed back for math consultation
till 2 plus and went home with ivan.
bathed and cabbed over to meet darling
and cabbed town to yishun to meet
xinghe. hahas. ns man, so funny.
had dinner at northpoint's sakura.
delicious =]
7.30 cabbed back to darling place with
xing he den i took a cab home not long
ago. if u noticed i have not been walkin
or taking bus or mrt often. that is
just because i am TOO LAZY!!!
NOT THAT I AM RICH!.

放电^-^

took this the other night
at cine kboX =]

2006-09-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

Can i just break down in tears
like nobody's business? i have
to admit i am WEAK!physically
and emotionally. Exams are just
round the coner yet i have not
settle down my heart for revision!
I so much wanna cry out loud but
i have to hold back my tears.
cos i have cried a river and
those crying doesnt help to solve
any problems of mine. life is
still so sucking, it couldnt get
any better. i have done everything
trying to save the situation gettin
from bad to worst but somehow
this situation seems to get WORST!
he brought me here and make me so lost!
hatreds filled my heart and i swear
if i have to i'll slaughter them all.
i'll make their life 100 times worst
time mine! fuck it.

Hatred replaced my smiley face.

2006-09-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 10 MONTHS DARLING;)

DArling has finally came back on
saturday!I didnt meet him right
after he reached home as he needa
go xin dua, i met him at cine at
around 11.45pm.i took a train down
and on my way i was wondering how
would i react after 10 days without
him.He couldnt find me. lols and
when the moment i saw him i hugged
and kissed him! the feeling is just
so great! i am no longer miss lonely:)
for he wil be always there for me.
he never fail to brighten up my day,
he nvr fail to surprised me,though
we do have conflicts. oh well i hope
through this our love for each other
gonna be stronger, we have come so far
and now we are here. i hope to have
an ever lasting love with you baby.
we headed to kbox this time ONLY the
2 of us ;)it was supposed to be a
singing session but hell no! it was
a drinking session instead.i hang over!
we reached home at arnd 4plus.
Darling woke me up at 7.20am.
cabbed home and it was about 7.30
so quikily changed and den headed to sleep
my mum woke me up again at 9.45 for
church! i was feeling damn giddy
while in church and so quickly went
to the toilet and i vomit everyhting out!
so have been sleeping for the whole day.
went over to darling place and he got me
a LV wallet which i love it ;) thx darling.

Today is just another school day,
and the exams are drawing nearer each
day. And i am starting to panic!
must really settle down for some revision.
oh well i betta get my arss outta here.

loves;

2006-09-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

School was monotonous as usual.
it wont get any better infact school
gonna be a nightmare from now
onwards cos everybody are in their
exam/revising mode.

Had a free period which is physics.
i wanted to do something useful
but i just cant help it but to lay my
head on the table and eventually
i went into lala land. oooops....

I got back my bio test 6 and i failed.
but i managed to pass test 5 so
when it conbines together and the
average i passed :) i just hope my
physics wont pull me down in this
coming major exam..prays hard*

Didnt attend history makeup lesson
as i know i wouldnt be able to absorb
anything into my head at that point
of time. i was deat beat plus today
was a long day in school. so i decided
to go home. met adrian kor at mac
for brunch and den later he went off
at 5 for his facial appointment...
hah so lucky to have a girlfren
who is a beautician or hairstylist heh..
and i went home~~~~~~~~
done my english essay 1 step 2 :)
okay i am off to finish up my math
practice paper!! i love this chapter!
therefore i must do my work!

gotta go;
loves;
JUAN`

2006-09-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

I'm dead beat now due to
lack of sleep recently.
i'm not sure why but somehow
i feel so shag out, i always
feel damn sleepy in the day time
but at night i cant sleep for god sake!
this caused me to be sleeping
in class whenever there is
a free period. =.=instead i should
be revising my works.
i always have problem sleeping
at night, further more i
forced myself not to take
afternoon nap cos if i do so,
i will not be able to sleep for
the whole night which is a
torture for me.

enough of that,
went down to meet Adrian kor
at mac last night around 11.45.
okay i couldnt sleep so
decided to meet him as he
claimed that he was damn
hungry.we chatted bout lots
of things and talk about his
career HAIRSTYLIST!!! :)
he agreed that i should go
for my dreams so asked
him about the course in
jeanyip as he is working there.
so i got a clearer picture
of the whole course.

i have decided to sign up
for hairstyling course after
my secondary life :)
and i hope to take the
6 months of makeup course
too which gonna cost me
a bomb! but nvm my interest!
isnt it true that we should
follow our dreams? agree?

Surprisingly i manage to
do the maths practice
paper in school today
you know there is this
satisfication that came
across your mind when
you finally know how to
to something that u
hated so much but somehow
for this time u managed
to get the worksheet done
by yourself without much
mistakes. omg that kinda
feeling is just so shiok!
esp when u have like already
given up on that subject
and suddenly there is
something pulling u back
asking u not to give up!
oh that feeling is just so great,
trust me! cos i HATE maths
to the cores and i ALWAYS
fail them but somehow or
rather there seems to be
something getting into my
head and that makes me
so busy during maths lesson
rushing to finish up the worksheet.
ps: BY MYSELF! 1st time :)
oh nvm you wouldnt understand
what the hell i'm talking about.
IT IS PERFECTLY OKAY =]

gotta go;
loves;
JUAN`

2006-09-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW is the day;
that we all are going back
for school and this gonna be
a very last term and also a
rather short term till the
end of years examinations .
and then when the holiday comes
WE ALL GONNA CELEBRATE!!!
so mean while mug hardder :)
well,
I did not really enjoy much
during this 1 week holiday
which is a good thing :)
i mean i did enjoy for the first 2
days which is the KRUNK party
at sentosa and followed by the outing
with my darling and friends :)

Then monday till friday, i have been
attending remedia lessons in school.
so yesterday was a break for me at
home and i managed to finish my
english assignments. *claps* :)

so today i went town alone;
on my way darling msged me
from indonesia cos b4 that i told
him i wanna go shopping.
he said he wan a snowcap=.=
i was like wad the hell is snowcap?
lols so he send me a picture tt he
took wearing the snowcap =]
and den later i walk around and
i manage to get him one from
77 street :)
awww anw is worth it cos
darling likes it!

Later met my mum outside FEP
and we went shopping =D

this is the snowcap ;)

the model is wearing
the cap tt i bought for darling
cool heh :)

i miss him BADLY :(

front view/
love my hair :)

back view :)

another one:)

gotta go =)

cyas till then;
LOVES;
JUAN`

2006-09-09T14:24:00.000+08:00

I was hardworking last nite :)
so i finished up my english
essay which we needa copy
7 model essays! tiring but
it was satisfying. I finished
up everything at around 1plus
and in between i took some
pictures using my w800i
and i send that photo (on
the top) to my darling in
indonesia :) before that i
managed to talk to him on
the phone for that pethetic
3 minutes till then i realised
how much we needa treasure
one another when they were
there for us.珍惜 :)

aye i needa thank veron for this
simple yet lovely layout :)
btw most of my previous layouts
were done bye her none other than
my dearest;
VERONICA LEONG JIA WEN!

with lots of LOVES;
JUAN`

2006-09-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

Awww my darling went indonesia already
and i am here all ALONE =/
we can hardly call or msg each other!!!
is like damn EXPENSIVE!!! F**K!
All i get is to talk to him for 1 minute at
night and this got to carry on for 10 days!!!
I just received a call from him =] he said he
bought for me something and he asked me
what i still want? and i said baby all i want is YOU
hahahas.. well that is just so true! we quarrel
everytime but when he is not there i felt so
uncomfortable, lost the sense of secure.
hais, the feeling is hard to describe :(

holiday is coming to the end
piles of homeworks still left undone.

孤单的夜里
我是那么的想念你

2006-09-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

我们怎么了？为什么我又哭了？

Forever? what is forever? fuck that forever!
Promise ? what is promise? fuck that promises!

All i know i am in pain!
i havent been sleeping well these days.
i am so tired!!! I AM SO MENTALLY TIRED!!!
i can turn no where, cos nobody understands me.
so much things i wanna blast them all out
but there aint any listening ear.
so many sorrows , but all i can do is to
swollow them back and keep it to myself.
i am having heartache now but anyone knows?
my heart is asking me to let go
but baby i cant bare to leave you.
my heart is asking me to move on
but baby how can i move on when
you aint there.
i never dare to imagine when you are not
there for me any more.
i never dare to imagine when you dont belong to me.
i never dare to imagine!!!

everything seem so wrong!
they are out of control.
i wanna know what is so wrong!
what is wrong with us?
why am i like this?
why am i so easily break down in tears?
why do i get hurt all the timeS?
10 months are we gonna end just like that?
10 months not long but the efforts are there.
10 months not long but the feelings are there.
10 months we have been trough ups and downs.
10 months u have been my darling.
10 months u were there for me,
10 months u bring me up so high,
10 months the love we had
10 months the promises we made.
10 months the dreams we deam for.
10 months we have come so far
yet we did nothing to solve the conflicts between us.

tell me what can i do?
do i really have no other choice but
to let these 10 months go down the drain?

我只要你多了解我一点

2006-09-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

IT WAS REALLY A GOOD BEGINING
OF THE 1WEEK HOLIDAY =]

Friday;
oh well it was a very last minute decision
to go for the KRUNK party at sentosa.
Here i would like to thank peipei for taking
the trouble to go over to tricias house TWICE
to take the ticket for me. lols paiseh eh...

went over to darlings house as i left my bikini
there.i open the door and realised he didnt
go to work... DAMN LAZY! slack at his hse till
noon. so i asked him to accompany me to the
KRUNK party. quickly call peipei to get me
another ticket. ;) so we doll up and stuff left
darling hse and headed down to FEP to meet
peipei and huiteng. They wanna get bikini
and the 2 girls bought a top each which i think
it was preety nice yet cheap so i decided to get 1 too .
changed in the toilet and we went down to harbourfront
for lunch. my all time fav hokkien mee.
meet the others and den at about 7 we went in
for the party. not so crowded at first as it is common
sense that people dun come in so early for party yea..
so as time passby there was a big crowd.went to drink
with darling after that cath the catwalk all tt den the music
get started for DANCING!!! yea shake ya body =]
went over to the field with darling he wanna danceeeee.
den the others were at the other side eating.teng came
to find us as she needa get home early to send her sis off.
we left at arund 12 headed down to boat quey for more
drink as darling still have 1/2 bottle left at the bar.

Saturday;
sleep till noon, den went to admiralty place with
darling, his mum, his da jie and gini. had lunch
there den later went to market. back to darlings
hse at 2 plus and i was really tired while he was
playin com i fell asleep till 6pm. quickly wake up and
bath den doll up had dinner at darlings hse. den we
cab down to red hill as darling have sin dua.
he end early so we cabbed town to cineleisure to meet
Xing he, ah dee, ah neh, winnie and her fren.
they wanted to go party world but no room.
so cabbed down to boat quey AGAIN.later cabbed
back to town at about 1am and den we went partyworld.
singing session till 5am the 2 girls left ealry and we
decided to stay and eat prata till 6am cos we didnt wan
to get midnight charge. toking about army stuffs as
xing he goin for NS this coming thursday... hahahahas.
oh well all the best...
reach back to darlings hse at 645 am and den off to sleep till
2pm just now.. and i just reach home...
i am so tired now........

i need to sleeeeeeeeeeeep. =D

2006-08-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

Days are passing by so fast that i just came to realise
OH FUCK MY EOY EXAM IS JUST ROUND THE CORNER!
and now i still couldnt get my ass down to start on a serious work.
i have been wasting too much time and i am still wasting time NOW!
I know i am in deep shit cause all the class test 2 are coming up
next week. have been staying at home doing NOTHING this weekend.
no no i did something which is to copy all the verbs from letter C.
okay i dont wish to elaborate anymore on that cause seriously if i
continue my blood gonna be boiling!
feeling lonely =.=x okay nvm i must be strong & independent & i know i shall!

20.08.06 1.20am
i was feeling really down! and i typed the message in my hp!

心很烦也很累了，
不知道还能受多久。
没人了解，
也没人试着去了解我，
就连我最爱的那个他
也豪不关心。
心在痛，
可是又有谁知道？
又能向谁诉苦呢？
在这孤单的深夜里，
我流着寂寞的眼泪，
心碎心痛我以麻木了。
不能怪谁，
只怪自己没度量，
也怪自己每有那颗宽容的心。

要做你心目中的那个女人真的很难！
i'm not a girl not yet a lady!

20.09.06 2.45am
He came and asked me to open my wondow.
i was angry at him earlier on but everytime i see him
my heart melt! he wont be able to accompany me for
the next 3 weeks . next week chiong sua 5 days.
follow by 10 days at indonesia! OMG!!杀了我吧!
after which he cabbed home and slept at 3 plus
and have to book in my this morning 7 plus.

我们的爱情能够经的起考验吗？

If i have a gun i WILL shoot her down! trust me!

2006-08-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

Oh well i know i shouldnt be here now but just read
a forward email from darling about HOROSCOPES!
which i personally think it is really really REALLY
very true!
here's my Horoscope. GEMINI

GEMINI WOMAN

A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess. She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow. She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie. She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer. Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.

And, here is my darling's Horoscope! AQUARIUS
i think it is really very true especially his. =]
i shall becareful or he might leave me =X OMG!!!

AQUARIUS MAN

Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of it's outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be "patient", even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won't be with him for long. A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with "Love". He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy. He hardly lies except if he think it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lie he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty. Even he is a high and self confident type and center his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten,but you did not. Belief him that he is very sorry and give him another chance. Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love". He is the type who gamble anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he like to overpowered this type of people to assure that he is more superior. He like to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meet a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he will act as if he never has love like this before. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could fall in love again with another girl and act again like he never has this kind of love before.He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is "excitement" and "Love goes on". If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure. If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hate to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower. If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends. Don't ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man, he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.

Oh well i betta get out of here
and continue with my HIGHLIGHTING
EVERY SINGLE VERBS IN THE STRAITS TIME =/
Fuck it.

2006-08-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

Friday;

Went town with Rongxin after school.
i was damn tired, so we only walk around
at FEP. den we to buy SOMETHING*
it cost $69.90 for 1 and $89.90 for 2!(twin pack)
so we bought 2 and we shared the money!
i hope that SOMETHING really works
if not its gonna be a waste of our money!.
we had already wasted $100 plus on the
other product last time... pleaseeeeeee
i hope it works =]

I'll announce it if it really works and i will
definately introduce it to those who need it..
hahahahas...

Saturday;
I spent my day with Darling ;)
I love the foods that his mum cook.
Just came back from church.
has been really long since i last went there.
today was special;
there was a special guest. Dong fang bi li. Billy.
Talk about life, going home and stuffs.. interesting.
It was a very interesting session.
i learnt lots of things i must say...

God bless;

2006-08-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

Tuesday;

Met rebecca and we went school together without Veron;
she needa go early for the NDP. this yr i did not join the band
for NDP reson very simple... i did not atten any pratice =/
received a call from Jingting and she told me her attire is not
acceptable and she is not allow to go in to school. so we met
and we went in together. having a difficulty sittin down as i was
wearing jeanskirt. nvm borrowed yuen mei's bag and 'cover'.
later on there is this malay teacher she claimed that she is
takin charge of our class and she said our attire is unacceptable.
so she went to informed other teachers. fuck. so awhile later
ms chong came and both shandy and i got called out.
lots of things happened after that. not gonna mention. waste time.

Went for The field trip . it was not so bad just that my shoes were
killing me. reached school a 1 plus den headed down to town with
Veron. shopped. and we bought jeans each.. went back home early
at about 6.

Wednesday;

Wake up at about 10.30, called darling and he was still at his sis
house. went back to sleep again till 12. and darling was back
to his house already... bath and dolled up. got ready to go meet him.
went over to his house. watched tv till and den wait for darling to
get ready and we out at about 5. headed to marina for steamboat
and also the fireworks. I ENJOYED MYSELF VERY MUCH!
went over to MS's burger king for a drink with my bro his his
group of friends. Darling cabbed back to his camp cos he needa
book in by 11. so i went esplanade with my bro they all. i was
wearing heels and my legs cant walk cos in GREAT PAIN...=/
wanted to take a cab there but GOT MONY NO CAB! fuck rite.
so non of us know how to get there and we were wondering anrd.
bump into RUSYDI and his Gf.. so he showed us the way. thx eh =]
slacked at esplanade enjoyed the aircon there. =D
took the last train back and i reached admiralty mac at about 12.45am
waited for my bros to retured reached home at about 1.30am.
SUPER TIRED!!! MY LEGS ARE HAVING MUSCLE ACHE NOW!

Thursday(today)

wake up at 11 by a call from darlling. he booking out cos he needa
go home to take his t-shirt . he went home and got his shirt den he
came over to admiralty place and we met for breakfast. =D
and he he booked in again :(

TODAY IS JON'S BIRTHDAY...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FRIEND ;)
8 years of friendship =]
明天请你吃饭 ;）

2006-08-05T17:56:00.000+08:00

ALl i am asking for is your ATTENTION!!!
i understand that your tired after work, but do
u spare a thought for me? i need your attention!!!
i felt so lonely alright! i dont know why but somehow
i felt that i can no longer get your attention!
you are fucked up cause i was disturbing you all the way
while you wanna take a rest but cant you just spare me
few more minutes till i left? can you feel the loneliness
inside me? can you feel the misses i have for u? can you
feel the LOVE ?! or u cant feel anything?
i have nobody to talk to... i need listening ear but
where do i get 1? i need someone to show care and concern.
i need someone to be there when i feel like giving up.
i need somoone to be there to motivate me...
i need all those things that other girls get!
i am not comparing but you ask yourself, have you show
enough care and concern!? i told u i have stomach cramp!
you didnt even care and u left me on sofa on my own!..
that moment my tears rolled down okay!
why are you changing? why cant you be the one that i used
to know who can get me hot water and sit right
beside me and take care of me when i need you!?!

我需要你的爱！

2006-08-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

哭着说我很快乐
i love thats why i care
i cry because i still care.

i seriously need some brain wash.
i needa get the past outta my head
or else the situation is goin to get worst.
but isnt it true that women alway remember
unhappy things very well and everytime they
quarrel sure enough they will dig out every
little unhappy things that happened in the past...
and there the conflicts starts...

Am i all to blame? am i the only one in the wrong.
i nvr wish all that to happen but somehow time
and again the conflicts just start and there follow by
the worldwar.. omg i am SICK & TIRED OF IT!!!
maybe our relationship is still not strong enough.
81/2 months. only.. maybe we still need to undergo
few more test from God b4 we can really settle
down and appreciate one another.

i had stomach cramp and therefore had
a day off from sch=/
i wanna study for F&N test tomorrow. =D
Good Luck to all..
Hais... i shall concentrate on my studies for now...
i will stop here for now. will post again when
i'm in the mood. till then.. tc all & cyas.

2006-07-31T16:37:00.000+08:00

I JUST WISH I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THESE!!!
i cant take it and i am born to have a very extreamely 'small' heart!
I went to school with a very good mood! hoping to have a very nice
monday breakfast at cck mac with veron & michelle (which i did).
despite we were ABIT late we still went for breakfast. finished up fast
and we went to school. when we reached the gate we were 1 min late!
hey 1 min late!!! not 10 mins late! oh what ever... out names were taken
down and they will monitor us CLOSELY and make sure we dont
bloody hell late again whole of this week if not next monday we will have
to report at 7.25!shit that.

two periods free which we had hell loads of fun in the class and also in the
hall.

THIS IS THE WORST PART OF THE DAY!!!
i was so happy to hear that you gonna book out later
and the next sentence i said was ' i want to meet you for lunch!'
( with very excited tune!)
and there you go ' i cant make it i have to go yishun cos my Godsis has gastric pain'
(with a very serious tune!)
ARE YOU A DOCTOR IN THE FIRST PLACE???
(the answer is NO)
NOT AS IF SHE HAS GOT NOBODY TO TAKECARE OF HER!
(mind you she got her own boyfriend okay!!!)
AM I NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU???
(which i think so)
DO YOU SPENT VERY MUCH TIME ON ME???
(hell NO!)
I THOUGHT MOSTLY NS BOYS WHEN THEY BOOK OUT THE FIRST
PERSON THEY WANNA SEE IS EITHER THIER FAMILY OR GIRLFREND?
the worst thing is that i even shed tears for what you have said!!! FUCK IT!!
I cant control my tears... but to let them flow. pretending to be strong
when i am so fucking weak inside. you said you fucking give me all the
very best and you asked me not to ask for more???
am i asking for too much?i am just asking you to have lunch with me! is it too much?
TOUCH YOUR HEARTbefore you say all that!
i told you i am one lucky girl. i admit i am lucky.
but you dont fucking hell come and pamper me when u bloody hell hurt me!
EVERYTIME YOU KILL ME WITH ALL YOUR HURTFULL WORDS
and than you save me from the hell with all the pamperings. do i have to suffer
so much before i can become a lucky girl?? if that is the case i rather i am one
ordinary girl WHO DONT GET HURT ALL THE TIMES!

and you!
if u are so unhappy with the results that you yourself got, u bloody hell go and study
for god sake! and beat me in EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT since you want it so much
and dont come and bullshit infront of me! I HAVE ENOUGH .

2006-07-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

谁能够划船不用桨
谁能够扬帆没有风向
谁能够离开好朋友
没有感伤
我可以划船不用浆
我可以扬帆没有风向
但是朋友啊
当你离我远去
我却不能不感伤

Had a heart attack when i received darlings call lastnight.
he told me he da bao for me and he said he need me to
cut his hair or else he gonna sign 3 extra when he book in.
it was really a last min... he have to book in by 11 and yet
his hair still not cut. so he came over. i went down to look
for him at about 10 den i just trim his hair and den he took
a cab back to his camp... grrr...

Had my MONDAY BREAKFAST at cck mac with veron. ;)
as usual HOTCAKE & Fillet o-fish. =] oh mannn YUMMY!!!
life in school was still okay cos we end earlier due to the
Olvl listening... =D how i wish school ends at 1.30 EVERYDAY.
Good idea isnt it? mann i'm dreaming again...

Those bastards... i just wish i could kill them...
seriously they deserve it...
they have those *PLEASE SLAP ME* kinda face...

2006-07-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

我真的受伤了
Saturday;
Went town with veron. we start from fareast to bugis.
my legs were killing me, 爱美就要负出代价！ =]
bought 3 tops.I have been spending my money like
as if i print it. omg... how i wish my parents are millionair!!!
oh fat hope! back to the topic. we walked for the whole day!
i'm growing older and i get tired so easily! maybe due to lack
of excersise. for goodness sake, i have not been really engage
myself in anyform of sports this year. i didnt even run during
PE... and now i am preparing to fail my coming NAPFA test.

Sunday;

电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

2006-07-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

一断有了好几年之久的友情，
一起走过了在小学里的日子，
一起在小六离校后因不舍
而做在一起一边听歌一边流着眼泪
诉说着我们当年的不舍
诉说我们要进不同学校的烦恼
终于上了中一，
我们的友情还是如此的真
很感激能有这些情同姐妹的好朋友
一年又过了，
我们都升上中二，
就在这年我们的友情渐渐的疏远了。
一起出去的时间也减少许多，
只记得06/06/05 的那天
还有09/06/05到11/06/05的那几天
我们一起疯过的美好日子
很快的我们都到了中三，
见面的时间越来越少，
已前的那5个情同姐妹的我们就
在这一年慢慢的变成了陌生人，
见面说不上5句话的我们
对此本人我觉得我们就像
最熟悉的陌生人

那些无价之宝的美好回忆请大家
好好的把它保缠在我们的心里
必竟我们曾经是姐妹

要是在街上碰到面记得要问声好

＊再见我的朋友们＊

2006-07-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

Wednesday;
I didnt go school today =.= oh well i have got something on. lols. =/
didnt want to attend Singapore poly that course but still the end
i did. it was all last minute decission. so i met irvin they all at cck mrt
at about 2.50. we were supposed to reach by2.30. but we were way
too late. reached there at about 3.30 still have to wait for the teachers.
so i supposed to go group 2 but i changed to 1. seriously i learnt NOTHING!.
the global thingy my house have it also but i lazy to try. hahas.
so took lots of picture with Michelle lim. shandy , yuenmei, elizzz &joycelyn.

Thursday;
Another boring school day. i reached ach damn early. wanted to go eat mac
but she didnt come. so went school with Nazura. came back home with her
and sulastri. hahas. so went out after tt.

2006-07-03T21:07:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY;
went over to darling place to watch worldcup;
Brazil VS France
0-1
France played really well i mean the players were all so fast!
And my dearest darling lost $100!!!
hais... i dont know what to say cos he is already stressed
and if i were to nag somemore i bet he gonna expload
and the war gonna start. so therefore i kept my mouth shut!

SUNDAY;
cabbed down to Yishun Giant with darling & his mum at 1plus.
went there to change the mixer and shopped.
Had kfc for brunch. =]

Lastnight anybody watch Ch U 天...使我爱你
Its SUPER NICE!!! and its damn touching! i cried!! =.=
my brother was lk laughing at me. !!! kuku sia.

2006-07-01T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so miserable, i dont know wad is straining our relationship but
somehow it doesnt seem to be right.I dont know how should i put it but i just
feel not right at all. I've been self comforting myself that everythings gonna be
fine and things will go on our way but it seems to be just a dream. I wanted to
see u so much yet our time together is just so short. i know i have to understand
this is not what u want too but when i'm alone lying on my bed those wild thoughts
came into my mind again. And missing someone so badly is really really miserable.
Whats worst is when u are missing him, you cant get to see him, you cant even
hear his voice and what you can only do is to press your handphone get into the
gallery and den there you can see the pictures of both of you smiling happily.
looking so lovely and there goes your tears gushing out, the feeling of missing
someone so much and yet you can't do anything just SUCKS!

FRIDAY;
school ended early at 12.30 so came back home straight away.
came online for a ahwile den den so fast the time was 3.45.
how much i wish the time spent in school can pass that fast too. :)
quickly went to bath cos i know i am gonna be late. i need lots
of time to doll up and stuff. got everything ready at only 4.35.
quicky get out of my house and den took a train down to bugis.
supposed to meet my fren at 5pm but i was late by 20 mins =X
i dont know why but i am ALWAYS LATE! so sorry.
oh well havent seen her for 8 years plus and finally yesterday i got
to meet her wen went to shop around and den headed for dinner.
den shop again. we chat alot about the past. we are getting closer again.=]
Xiao hei; i'm really sorry. i know u were really pissed yesterday and
you need someone there. sorry. i will meet you up soon. really got no
times =X

SATURDAY;
wake up damn early dont know why but i cant sleep the whole night.
decided to meet him for breakfast but he didnt wan to cos he dont eat
breakfast so early.hais... 我只想看你可是你却不懂我的心。
so didnt meet him and den he have to go back to camp for some
shooting thiny. Stupid SAF why must they burn their Saturdays. fcuk.
went to civic center to change my bank account. currently is under
my passport so i wanna change it to my IC den only i can deposite my cheque.
walk around cwp and i bought a shirt. He booked out at 4 plus so went
down to meet him for lunch. i felt like hugging him tightly telling him how
much i miss him, how much i 've been looking forward to meet him
but there is this very strong feeling which didnt allow me to show my
emotions. didnt want me to show him how much i actually miss him
there i go keeping cool and kept back all those words which i wanted
to tell him and let him know very much. and i missed my chance and
i kept cool all the way till he board the bus and went home den i
started slapping my face asking myself to wake up! but everything
is just too late. thoese words wont come oout anymore all i did was
sobbing in the room... then later the cold war starts again. And my
attitude towards him just SUCKS i must admit. i'm really sorry but
i cant help to do silly things and say all those hurtful words but pls
spare thought for me too. am i happy doing all that?
My feelings for you have never ever ever fade once but it is increasing
every day by day i am sure you know about it, i hope you can see.
When u were sick, u know how i felt? i felt worst than you i can tell you
honestly. i just hope to be by your side everyday and takecare of you
but did you appreciate it? i hope you do. too many things in my mind
that i wish to tell you but i dont know how i shud put it in a way that
we both wont get hurt. well i'll just keep it. hoping everythings gonna be fine.

2006-06-29T18:03:00.000+08:00

Let me just say a lil bit about JJ's concert at Singapore indoor
stadium last sat. =]
SATURDAY;
Meet darling in the morning till 5 plus den we cabbed
to yishun and he went to meet his friends for billard and
i went to kallang to meet my cousins for JJ lin jun jie's concert.
FIRST time in my life i went for this kinda concert. was so excited!
the concert was really NICEE. JJ's voice was damn powerful and
the whole atmosphere was just so GREAT!!! he sang 30+ songs
in total and i am begining to fall inlove with his voice =]
okay enough of that. i am too lazy too upload the pictures =p.
reached home at about 12 plus. cousin's boyfren send me home.
later at around 2.30 midnight i went down to admiralty mac to
meet my darling and rongxin. slack at mac till lk 5 and den went
back home to sleep!!!
SUNDAY;
wake up at 2.30pm was so tired and i didnt feel lk gettting my ass
out of my bed. called xinghe and asked him to help me with my
homeworks =] and he did. hohoho; thanks alot.
stayed at home the wholeday preparing to get my soul back to
school the next day. =X
MONDAY;
first day of school; I got cought for my hair eyebrow; skirt;
and den again my mood changed. didnt feel ling goin to sch.
school timetable changed and for every MONDAY morning
we can report to school late =] 8.30 have to reach classroom.
oh well just have to appreciate it cos is way better den reporting
to school at 7.25am.
was so damn hungry man and i was termbling
hoping the time could pass fast so i can run to canteen for FOOD!
TUESDAY;
just anothe day in school; BORING~~~~
WEDNESDAY;
Same boring day; oh and 3A&B went to Singapore Poly.
my class is next wed and fri. heard that is boring..
shall i go ? i dont wish to... =/ i didnt go for the band meeting
today at the auditorium. this sat have to go for the top 3 band
performance at national stadium. can i not go? say yes !! =p
oh and after school went causeway for lunch with Irvin & junhao
later meet ronnie and xiangzhen at cwp cos they went to make IC.
Crap alot at the kopitiam. the guys... no comments.
THURSDAY;
Another day in school. Thank God english extra lesson after
school was cancelled. =D so i went CWP USB bank, thought
i could get the money by cash but it was not a cash cheque.
went home after that. and den here i am blogging..
Meeting my old friend tomorrow??? most probably bah.
havent seen her for lk 8 years and the memories i have in
mind are all so young. i hope to see her tml ya..
okay and I HAVENT GET MY PAY YET!!!!

bleahhh i am so in need of money now!!! i wanna buy lots
of thingssss....
a pair of heels;(comfortable)
NIKE shoe(will i wear tt often?)
more cosmetics;
a school bag;
a handbag;
more tops and bottoms;
Belt;

aww can i wish for a LV wallet?

hahahas........

2006-06-24T17:02:00.000+08:00

Thursday;
Had Mac's hotcake for breakfast.i cant finish it
by myself and my darling he cant eat hotcakes.
waited for him to get ready and we took a cab
to marsiling clinic. waited for damn long.
my baby's fewer is goin up and down for few days.
hais. i just hope he can get well soon =]
later he went back to camp to pass the MC
and i went back home. awhile later met veron
at admiralty mac doin our homeworks. i did a lil ONLY=/
went causeway forawhile den we both came back to
my house my mum cooked noodles which veron wanna
eat long time ago.

Friday;
Came to visit my darling early in the morning...
slept till 12 plus called veron and we met at
admiralty mrt at 2.30. so i went down for lunch or
rather breakfast with my darling den later met
rongxin at the bustop and den the 3 ladies went
town together... =D darling went home and he took his
medicine and SLEEP. had fun in town esp the part where
we taking the neoprints. will scan the pictures soon=]
hahas. and den later i went to cut my hair. not much
change jus that i trim my fringe and cut my hair thinner
abit. 3 ladies reached admiralty so at about 7 den walked
around the pasarmalam. den later veron went to eat kfc.
and we waited for her to finish den later she went home
me and rongxin walked to the coffee chop near darling's hse
and i bought horfun, den rong xin later went to her cousin
house and i went to darling's hse and there we ate HORFUN!! =]

Saturday;
came to my darling here and den watched tv play maple
nothing to do. i am goin to JJ's concert at indoor stadium
later at 8 i am leaving now. =]

2006-06-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

Tuesday; 13/6/06
I am TIRED! yes damn tired but who actually gives a fucking care?
so tired of life. i thought it is beautiful with YOU by myside but hell NO.
I really lost every trust i have in you. i felt so miserable right now. but who
knows ... i have to swollow everyting back trying very hard to hold back my tears
but still i cant control myself. and then now i burst out sobbing like one ugly bitch
AGAIN. how much i wish everything is just a dream but the reality is too cruel
again... i cant accept it.. i cant

killme

2006-06-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

Saturday;10/6/06

After a long week of working for 12 hours everyday i FINALLY
can get some rest or rather to enjoy myself on the saturday.
came back from work at about 9 in the morning get washed up
and i went to sleep till bout 3 den doll and yea get ready to meet
my boy at cwp. we went to eat Sakae sushi. NICEE =]
Cabbed down to East coast for raymond's birthday party.BBQ.
we didnt stay too long the birthday boy aint there yet =X
so left his girlfrien and some friends there preparing..
we left first as my boy have to go to red hill for temple thingy.
cabbed down to redhill den i waited for him outside and we left
the place at about 10+ we cabbed down to boat quey . went to
a pub.to like celebrate my belated birthday...
oh well A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL HIS BROTHERS...
i enjoyed myself very much. I drank alot! i was feeling damn giddy
but i dont think i was drunk .played dice with them and we watched
soccer live. oh well must admit it was FUN. cabbed home at about
5 in the morning. was dead beat. Slept all the way till 1+ and den
later at about 6 went down for dinner with my baby and there
I GO WORK AGAIN!!! =[ and now i'm back from work..
just wake up and there i am blogging... wanna go get some rest again..

tata will update when i feel like. till then cyas and takecare all...

TO THAT ANNOYMOUS ; you are welcome to my blog to tag
but please put your damn fucking BIG NAME or else you
can find yourself a BIG HOLE and FUCK! fucker. lil dickhead.

2006-06-07T10:12:00.000+08:00

Tuesday; 06/06/06 MY BIRTHDAY!!!

THOUSAND WORDS CANT EXPRESS MY FEELINGS!!! =]
Though is a very very simple dinner at swensen with my dearest
sister! yes SISTER! shes just like my sister we are more
than FIRENDS! BUT its VERY VERY meaningful & i enjoyed myself!

VERONICA LEONG JIA WEN i was damn touched esp when u
sang the birthday song when the guy light up the candle on the
ice-cream =D i swear i will remember this day 06/06/06 in my
whole life.very simple celebrationg filled with LOVE .
Girl i love you seriously i do.

=ME VERON & VELDA=

TAN DI ZI (my dearest boy)
i understand that u cant celebrate with me on this special day
as u have the outfield. i cant deny that i wasnt disappointed
at all. well i'm sure u will be able to celebrate with me in the
future to come =] I AM STILL WAITING FOR U TO COME
BACK AND PUT ON THE NECKLACE FOR ME =]

CHEN JIE
well i am not sure if u will read this post or not but still
i wanna thank you for the birthday song u sang.
i was really sad cos i thought why am i still working on my
birthday but nevertheless this guy he brighten up my day.
he was there sitting beside me working in a factory together
with me and he sang a birthday song for me at 12am sharp.
hahas. ;D

A BIG THANK YOU TO ;
Si Hui; Huiteng; Rowenna Delvinder; Huiming; Steph;PeiPei;Shandy; Rebecca;
Ah de;Crystal; Jon;Michelle Yeo; Shimin; Winnie;HuiMiang;Xin lei;Feng ru;
YiQi ; Phang; Xue Hua; Geok Poh; Xianzheng; Suning;Libing;Irvin;Cai yun;
Hu yang; Iffah and a few more if i didnt write down ur name i am reallly sorry.=/
oh ya and VELDA LEONG KAI WEN; the cutie pie....
And my bro for the cake=D

去年的今天 06/06/05

我们都变了....

2006-06-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

WITH YOU AROUND MY LIFE BECOME MEANINGFUL

Friday;

Another boring day till my boy book out =] after dinner
i went down to meet him. cos we wanna go parsa malam.(spelling?)
oh well my bro went down cycling earlier with Chen jie.
so i went down later and we met my bro downstair so we
went walk walk and CJ went back home. after which we
bought icecream to eat and then went to blk718 to get
our bicycle. borrowed Chenjie's bicycle so i cycled my boy
to the basketball court. hahas wondering why not he cycle me?
lols as my bicycle dun have the backseat so i didnt dare to
stand at the back i scared i might just fall. so yea i cycle him.
when we reached basketball court my bro saw a guy looks
like Daryll yeo.T.T den the 2 of them went closer to take a
look and my bro still though tt was Daryll but he is NOT..
so we cycled around the basketball court and baby was
trying to teach my bro-.-x okay so we cycle till about 10
den we headed to parsa malam again. this time my bro
waited for us at 718 den we went to buy foods for his sis.
when i crossed the traffic light i saw ADRIAN kor!!! hahas.
tok to him ahwile and he went back home den we went to
buy foods. hahas later baby went home my bro and i went
to return chenjie's bike. den home sweet home. =]
Meet him again at about 12am den we watched MI3. EXCITING!

Saturday;
slept till 10 plus den played maple till it level up to 44.
oh well nothing much to do. so later watched abit of
hollow man which his sis borrowed. And was on net
till about 4 den went down to the coffee shop to eat fish&chips
and chicken cutllet. den baby walk with me to the bustop near
police station and den i walk home =]
sadly he gonna book in tonight!!! arghhhh
and the worst part is HE CANT CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY
WITH ME!!! :'( wad a sad thing to say. such a nice date!06/06/06
oh and i just found out that his Ex-stead's birthday is
on the 6th June too. and his mum is also 6th June.. =/

I TREASURED EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU

foreverlove;

2006-06-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

Tuesday;
I supposed to go Maths, MT and biology remedial but hell
i was too tired to get my ass moving . i wake up late somemore.
so i thought forget it la. even if i go i wouldnt be able to pay
attention when i am so dead tired so i slept somemore.
wake up at about 11 den get change and stuff den baby wanna
go woodland to make the card. oh well is lk a credit or rather
atm card. is PURPLE!!! so nice with his name on it. I WANT IT TOO!!
okay i will go check it out some other day. after that at about 2
we went to eat PIZZA HUT!!! muahahas. so full.

Lets get started!!! i'm so hungry at tt moment.
i havent had my breakfast yet!!! really...

He is the guy who make me fall deeply in love with.

他就是我的唯一 //*

PIZZA!!! is damn big! we cant finish!!!

retarded him.. lOls =D

The mess after we finished our lunch there. =X

HAD LOTS OF FUN THAT DAY!

Wednesday;

As usual i cant get my ass outta my bed for remedial.
Jon called me at arnd 7.30am and asking if i wake up already
wanna go remedial or not. i was lk okay let me sleep for another
few mins and i will wake up soon and i will be goin for remedial.
HELL I OVERSLEPT! i woke up at 8.20am. and left my hse
at about 8.40am. LRT was kinda crazy tt day. so reached sch
at abt 9.15. den i only got to know that our physics remedial
starts at 8am not 9... and they are coming out at 9.30.
so decided not to go in to the class. sat outside and wait for them.
went plaza for breakfast or rather lunch , half way steph
decided to atay and wait for huiming. okay i went i plaza with
irvin and xianzheng. 2 jokers. when i am with them i nvr fail
to laugh.. lols. so went home after tt.
headed AMK for interview with Chen jie.. well there is a very slim chance
that they will employ us. so forget it... after that went lavender
my father asked me to go hand in a document. wadever la.
so later went BUGIS. decided to shop for a while.
well it was really a GREAT EXPERIENCE i shall say.
bought 2 belts a skirt a bag and a shirt for my boy. =D

have yet to upload the picture. =X

Thursday;

i just wake up, this is still just the begining of the day.

my bro wants me to accompany him to Bugis and get

him a shirt and a pants for FREE>.<>

i print money. =X

okay okay lets stop here. i'm waiting for my boy

to book out tml... =]

2006-05-29T12:33:00.000+08:00

TRUST ME WHEN I SAY I FEEL LIKE DYING!!!

really i got the urge to jump down the building yesterday.

I felt like a LOSER! i was so lost at that moment. The thoughts

the weird feelings inside of me, the thousand words in my mouth

i wanted to scream out but suddenly i became SPEECHLESS!

Shall i pretend i did not see anything and carry on with it

or shall i blow the whole things up and give my 5 fingers striaght

on ur face? i felt like doing so but everythings beyong my ability.

i felt so weak, mentally & physically. i cant think well, all i think of

is WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH

TO U? fuck it i felt like a weakling cant even speak up and yet all i do

was trying to ask you to let me calm down sobbing like an ugly bitch.

It just SUCKS.

went home while i was about to do some soul searching. my phone

rang. Daryll. it was him! I felt so weird everytime he appears when

i'm having a tick with him. Smsed till 12 den he called me.

oh well and i chat with him tii 2.30am and my mind was already

half asleep so i decided to go sleep first. LOTS of things happend

today. 我承受不了.

我已经

已经把我伤口化作玫瑰

我的泪水

已经变成雨水早已轮回

我已经

已经把对白留成了永远

忘了天色

究竟是黑是灰

分手伤了谁

谁把他变美

我的眼泪写成了诗已无

所谓

让你再回味

字不醉人人自醉

因为回忆总是美

我已经已

经把绝情变成了恭维

因为不配

你就忽然自卑说声失陪

我已经

已经把沉默变成了忏悔

无路可退

只能无言以对

分手伤了谁

谁把他变美

我的眼泪写成了诗已无

所谓

让你在回味

字不醉人人自醉

因为回忆总是美

分手伤了谁

谁把他变美

我的眼泪写成了诗已是无

所谓

让你再回味

字不醉人人自醉

你的品位总是美

2006-05-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly i'm not having moodswing this time.
Cos usually when i'm PMS-ing my mood will
DEFINATELY goes up and down. Tummy Cramp as usual.
Okay lets just drop tt subject.
went to watch The Da Vin Ci Code last night. well is this
morning la. 12.30 am. Midnight show. After i bought
the ticket i messaged veron i was lk' hey i am watching
Da Vin Ci COde hahas envy??' and she replied ' i just now
already watch lo...at bishan in the afternoon blar!! slow.
lols damn Malu at tt time. =X wanted to tease her. in the end...
The show was rather anti Christian . bleahh i have got
no comments. ended at 3am. damn tired.

Okay 10 more days to my birthday. not excited at all..
lols seriously i am so not looking forward to that day. =X
Reality is cruel....

2006-05-23T14:03:00.000+08:00

DARLING'S WALLET WAS FOUND! =D

Wake up earlier today. met rebecca and her father drive us to
macritchie for the cross country run. it was tiring. i was cursing
on the whole jurney. Lots of monkeys and I AM SCARE OF THEM..
grr... was screaming... whole thing ended at 10.30 took bus down to
AMK and den cabbed to the comfort company to get baby's wallet.
His wallet was found =] EVERYTHINGS INSIDE my photos =p. hahahas.
den later went to eat our lunch damn full and we walked back to AMK
to take mrt back. i was feeling damn giddy. is it because of my eyes?
i dont know. my eyes just hurts lahh. damn it.
I CANT UPLOAD THE PICTURES INSIDE MY PHONE! wads wrong?
i wanna upload those wavy hairstyles. permed hair=p
nvm i'll try it .
damn tired now wanna get a rest. my eyes hurting me. fuck it.

2006-05-21T08:59:00.000+08:00

I HAD LOTS OF FUN TODAY !!!

But my baby lost his wallet in the cab when we came home.

There were LOTS of cards in his wallet. I hope he can get it back.

He was so fucking pissed!keep calling the comfort and city cab

to report lost and found so i hope they could reply ASAP.

Left my house at about 2 pm headed to CWP to buy LJ & cheeseballs.

Went to darling's so house. played abit of maple den at about

4.30pm went to change and cabbed down to bugis to hunt for a

present for Xing He. den later we took mrt to orchard to

meet Baby's campmate and den we went to the wedding dinner

together. The couple was so sweet. sit with all his campmates

only raymond brought his Girlfriend. Shes chio.

i was kinda sian at the wedding dinner as my dear was so

damn socialised and everybody keep askin him to drink drink and

still drink. and he was so playful goin around making his sargents drunk.

the dinner ended at about 11 plus . we cabbed down to yishun safra

to find Xinghe,jeff,daryl,jin hai, they were at the partyworld.

daryl and his gf working there but yesterday he took off . so his gf

served us. =] They can sing really well. oh and daryl's gf was really

a GOOD GOOD siinger.later on 2 girls joined us. their friends.

Nicole and Eliza. they are older than me people there are all 21. sadly.

Eliza can sing very well too. good singer.

so we played games and stuff. as usual those lose have to drink.

and they guys are cheaters. girls aint familiar with the games

so even if we win they said we lose and we have to drink. neh neh.

i drank alot. not one kind but many kind. I drank red wine at

wedding dinner, drank tiger bear and Martel at the party world.

omg i was damn seh.. so eliza and nicole were drunk too. lols

i remember we kept laughing non stop and did silly things .

And i mean really silly things. i was not so drunk just abit seh.

i was so shocked that Eliza actually stay at the blk behind mine.

she stay at blk 719 and i'm at 717. =] hahas.

so the singing session eneded at abt 3 den headed to a coffee

shop. and heard tt Nicole was baby's primary school friend. hahas.

okay i'll just stop here for now. goin home later to get my things

den go my girlfrend's house. Dollup and get ready to go bugis. =D

i'm super tired now. mentally and physically.i slept at about 5 this

morning and den waked up at 8. I CANT SLEEP!

gawd i guess i need some sleeping pills.

You ni zai wo sheng bian jiu shuan he zai zui wo ye bu pa!

2006-05-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

LADY IN LOVE :D

Yesterday was our 6 months anniversary.

so HAPPY 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY DARLING!

did not get to see him yesterday as he was still in camp.

or rather outfield. met up with him after school at sun plaza.

wen to have our lunch there. he trick me!!!!!! I WANNA CRY!!

guess wad??!! as i was eating my fishball noodles, he suddenly

wanna feed me . so i was lk nvm lah u eat loh i have it too.

den he said dont wan i wanna feed you. fuck sia. UNDER

THE FISHBALL there was this BIG piece of cmall red chilli.

that kinda of chilli is damn HOT loh. i didnt know and there i go

eat up the fishball together with the chilli and my whole mouth

was lk buring!!! tears filled up my eyes. gawd it was damn HOT!!.

BURNING can u imagine..

later went to walk around and bought a durian cake from

angie the choice. damnnice. =]

Tomoro i will be attending a wedding dinner with baby.

was FORCED to go. really . his friend's wedding dinner. =p

after that goin down to Momo? celebrate xing he's birthday.

so sunday maybe goin out with my girlfriend. den stay over at her

house at sunday night so the next morning will be goin to

school together. maybe have a breakfast at mas before we go sch?

Good idea? lols lets just 'enjoy' the last week in school before we all

go for HOLIDAYS!!! ya..

oh ya did i mention that I AM SO TOUCHED BY Veron's Post. =]

♥不变的友情♥

2006-05-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

MY CHINESE ORAL WAS SO SCREWED UP!!!

I finished the whole damn thing less than 4 mins.

damn it.

My darling is at outfield now. I MISS HIM SO MUCH lah!

SOBsss. 习惯就好！I MISS HIM EVERYDAY!

cos i dont get to see him everyday. weekends!!!!bleahs..

2006-05-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

母亲节快乐

HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL MOTHERS!!!

Didnt celebrate mother's day though. not even a meal.

nvm shared money with my bros and we got my mother

a diamond ring from TAKA. it was small but nvm is the heart

that counts anyway. Too many too many things happend

in my family these 2 years and i dont wish to say anything about it.

i do not wanna care so much as i have learnt my lesson.

the more i dwell on the sadness side the sadder i gonna get.

i wanna be happy cause i know if i'm moody HE will not be

happy too.

Back to school after a ''LONG'' week. Life in school just cant

get any better. I felt SO DAMN SLEEPY during social studies.

i was sitting right under Mr santok's nose. And yet i dozd off~~~

Lots of friendship thingys happening in school these days.

I just wanna say GROW UP PEOPLE!!! GROW UP!!!

it is just so CHILDISH . isnt it tiring to fake a smile?

personally i find it HARD to but sometimes the surroundings

just forced u to do so by fakeing a smile putting on a mask.

it is just so disgusting. why cant we just live as it is? why cant

we just accept the facts? why must we pretent? why must we

put on a mask to blend into the environment? why must we

human beings be so DISGUSTING? Are we doing all these

just to fit into the groups? Or are we just born to be disgusting?

????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

2006-05-11T20:13:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK FROM CAMP!!!

yes i'm back i swear i miss my friends.

my classmates, did i miss out the funs? =[

okay so i went sec 1 camp. it was abit boring

okay tt is expected. but i did enjoy myself during

the night walk. IT WAS FUN!!!the sec 1s were all

so cute can. i incharge of the gals so all didnt dare

to walk infront den there is one only guy in our group.

he was afraid too but the instructor wants him to walk

infront and den i was the 2nd follow by all the sec 1s.

we stop at a place and it was so nice! the moon was shining

above us and there were so many stars!!!for once i got a clear

view of the sky. it was damn nice trust me!

I SAW A SHOOTING STAR!!! yups shooting star!!!

i closed my eyes and made 3 wishes. hahas.

MAY ALL MY WISHES COME TRUE=] i hope so.

Today went back to school to collect my Hp at abt 12.

darling accompany me.

i miss my W800I so much. later went to vista point baby

wanna collect something. den cabbed down to yishun to

meet his fren to eat laksa. Yishun's food are all so nice man!

Tomorrow goin out with HER. havent seen her for 6days.

2006-05-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

My Mood is swinging high and low.
can someone tell me why? definately not my aunty
visiting me or wad but somehow or rather i am so moody
now. is it because i cant go oversea camp tml or?
was unable to meet HER today cos i've to go my cousin hse
as her baby daughter is another year older today. yups sorry GIRL.
as for the oversea camp admit tt i'm disappointed but
it really doesnt cause me to be so moody for the whole day.
i'm just so fucking piss with the teacher . not because i cant
go oversea camp but it it because the way they are handling things.
THEY ARE JUST SIMPLY SO IRRESPONSIBLE! i mean as a
teacher really very dissapointing to say all these but hell i'm still
damn piss with this kinda irresponsible acts. i hope somebody
in a higher rank would acctually knock some sense of responsibility
into his thick numb skull. and then i'll be glad.
oh and thanks KAREN NEO for helpin me to make a call to mr soh.
and i'm glad at the same time cos not all teachers are lk the one tt i've
mention ealier. Mr soh did try to help me but den it was really too
last minute thing .
okay what ever it is... i just hope that e sec 1 camp wont be so boring.
nvm i still have yuan mei and jing ting to accompany me =D

For those who goin oversea camp. TAKE CARE PEEP!
I WILL MISS YOU GUYS! wont be seeing you guys for
the whole of next week=X omg so sad!!! VERONICA LEONG
we cant have breakfast for the whole of next week =X :'(
REBECCA we wont be able to go school together for the
whole of next week. MICHELLE i'll miss your horny
actions your horny thinkings and your SHORT FINGERS!
oh and for HUITENG AND ROWENNA omg i cant believe
i've not seen u girls for 1 week and we will not be seeing each
other for the whole of next week too!!! OMG 2 WEEKS!! hahas.
cant believe it mann.

For YOU my BABY!
I know you wont be able to read this b4 u go outfield
but nvm i still wanna let u know tt I"LL MISS YOU!
definately I WILL! and you'll always be in my heart.
sorry abt the msg tt i sent earlier on and i know they are all
those hurtful words. i'm sorry but i've to say thoes words
are my deepest thoughts. 3 days no msg no phone calls.
OMG I CAN DIE!!!!!! KILL ME NOW!!!! :'(
i wanna cry can i???

Few pictures i took last sunday at sentosa to end this post =/